Live to Love & Love to Live

ends

2008-06-26T20:30:00.003+08:00

Cortana: ".. It's finished"
Master Chief: "No, I think we're just getting started"

The Common Test 2 is finally over for me. Okay, it was actually quite fast, they packed in all the papers in one week. Stress? I felt some, and that's good, but it did drain energy.

Thus I am spared from further examining, for now. Chemistry today was 'okay', relative to how everyone thought the paper was. Unusually I feel better about my physics than math, but that could be due to Wednesday being a totally grueling day, what with 6 hours for geography +math. I got nothing much to say about G.P. or geography, just that I only hope I did alright.

Anyway, I've gone to Evil Sudoku already, that is, Evil difficulty. My best time right now is 9 minutes 55 seconds, and it's in the top 35%, although just behind the mode. That was also the first time I broke past 10 minutes.

XD Just went thru' some games of Bridge. More like speed-bridge.. and oh my mind feels so slow now. I should sleep, there's things to do tomorrow.

My bruised knee seems better. I'll try to go jogging soon.

and so the time comes.. when all you see now will stall, giving way to a new beginning, and I shall no longer be afflicted by the Cold

Camel Jump

2008-06-19T18:45:00.000+08:00

moonbright..

Yesterday I visited the garden to gather some cuttings from the Cananga Fruiticosa. I have plans for this particular plant, but I will not make them known here. Apparently I took five cuttings from branches exhibiting vegetative growth (not flowering); I doubt all will take root. Another plant I have targeted is the sugar cane.

While at the garden I was quite distracted by the numerous snails sliming around. It had just rained heavily after a few dry days, so it was some fiesta. Stepping on some, I realised that there were so many snails that I might as well put them into a line-up for execution. Ya, call me a snail nazi; I smacked them one by one with a stone and threw their bodies into the compost bin. Altogether maybe about 20 snails were destroyed, interestingly I saw one with eggs (after cracking the shell, of course).

My bruised knee seems to be taking a while to heal. I have refused to bandage it, and pure scabs aren't forming all over yet. It seems then that I cannot practice 2.4km, so I'll take this opportunity to focus on working my arms. Perhaps I can reach 7 pull-ups by August.

Church camp is just over, and I did not attend it. I'll may end up missing the next 2 years' too, being in NS and all. I should be able to take leave, though, but the 'when' part isn't guaranteed. However, I've a feeling that all one may do on leave is sleep and recuperate..

Check out this video.

The Legacy Of Babel

2008-06-16T21:55:00.010+08:00

Most of us have heard of the story of the Tower of Babel. In it was the first recorded instance of a massive concerted effort at rebelling against the Lord God. The builders sought to rival the Most High by constructing a monument to their name, displaying their pride by desiring to give themselves a great place in history. In addition, the people refused to be scattered across the continents, despite the commandment to 'replenish the earth'.

As the construction of the tower proceeded, God saw that the people were not about to repent of their work, and judged them. God did not destroy the builders, but in his wisdom struck their unity, that their wicked ambitions may be disrupted. With new languages, people could no longer comprehend what a person from another community was speaking. As a result, not only was the tower abandoned, but the people of the earth finally moved off in groups to colonise new areas and develop civilisations. By this impact the nations were created, and God's sovereignty demonstrated.

Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth. (Genesis 9:1)

Such was the first line of command given to Noah and his children. This was indeed partly accomplished, for the generations of people recorded in the chapter 10 show the people had grown in number. However, simply producing much progeny serves little to fulfil this command if all the generations remained in one location (that is, a valley by the name of Shinar). Disobedience was then found in the hearts of men when they desired a unity that would prevent them from distributing themselves across the post-flood world.

This idea of unity was probably compounded by the actions of Nimrod, a mighty man who went forth and became the ruler of the first kingdom after the flood, either by politics or conquest. In order to maintain his seat of power, he would have gathered the peoples to his land of Shinar, while promising them safety from beasts. There, the Lord would gradually be forgotten while they sought to feed their pride, in councils devising a plan to prevent their scattering. Yet, despite that, the Lord confounded their tongues, forcing them to scatter in a harsher manner than Noah might have intended.

In our times, we as Christians have oft behaved like unto these people. Although we have no empty planet to repopulate, we are commissioned to go forth into all the earth, preaching Christ. Yet, enjoying the comforts of present fellowship, most of us feel little compulsion to spread the light to our non-christian friends. Now the history of the young church has seen it grow quickly as the early saints were persecuted and thus scattered - must God so send tribulation so that we may be kept from slumber? Indeed, it will happen before the last elect is gathered, but let us be ready and working in obedience.

Destroy, O Lord, and divide their tongues: for I have seen violence and strife in the city. (Psalm 55:9)

Alright, the above verse is somewhat taken out of context, but it was written by David in reference to what the Lord had once done at Babel. Doubtless the wicked pride of men in the city would lead them to work further wickedness, without the fear of the Lord. The increasing evil would then threaten to wipe the elect from off the earth, thereby breaking the Lord's promise of the Seed of the woman. To preserve his people, and yet quickly replenish the earth, the Lord chose not to destroy all the builders, but by confounding their speech forced them to stop work.

Thus when the people realized that they could no more work together as one, they gathered into their families and departed for the land which was allotted them. Most probably Noah had previously given his descendants the directions they should move towards, so that they may claim land for themselves. This was finally obeyed, as in a measure of mercy the Lord made the language of a man to be the same as his relations and generations, allowing them to maintain a patriarchal format of leadership instead of falling into anarchy. Thus were the origins of the nations, as each tribe moved to occupy their territory.

Now were the peoples not only separated physically one from another, but effective communication was sundered for a long time, and only in our years have been restored somewhat through globalisation. Language is indeed one of the greatest problems one faces when spreading the gospel: one of the gifts of the Holy Spirit was that of tongues, in order to overcome the language barriers. By this were many gentiles brought to Christ, as recorded in the New Testament. Although we are no longer given divine means of circumventing the confounding of languages at Babel, let those of us who are given the talent seek to learn other languages.

To the only wise God our Saviour, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, now and forever. (Jude 1:25)

By the impact of the punishment wrought at Babel God shows he is lord over the nations, for by this act were the nations formed. All the children of man lost their former languages, and were given new ones. We can presume that the faithful line of Eber were not partakers of the iniquity that was at Babel, and therefore retained the original language (and hence the proper knowledge of God was lost to the other nations). Nonetheless, the point is that ungodly unity was confounded, and the Lord's will done.

It is also worth noting that Nimrod's attempt at world domination was cast down by the Lord. Instead of setting a name for himself through a tower, the site of the construct was named babel (confusion): a humiliating example to those who would rise in pride against the Lord. Since then, Jehovah was made known to the remnant, maintaining his covenant with Israel. Despite scattering the peoples, the Lord held sway over the nations, using them to punish the wicked, or allowing Israel to conquer them: many examples were recorded in the Old Testament.

Though the scattering at Babel has increased the difficulty of spreading the gospel unto all the elect, with Christ's resurrection and ascension he claimed the title of King of kings and Lord of lords; and all power was given him in heaven and in earth. Therefore we should not fear to serve such a King. When Christ returns to judge the world, elect from all nations will gathered together from the ends of the earth, fulfilling the legacy of Babel.

Heavy-Laden

2008-06-14T22:50:00.002+08:00

This gave meaning to the phrase 'stumble and fall'..

I sustained an injury yesterday while walking. Partly due to a lack of sleep and substantial baggage, I stumbled, fell, and bruised my knee. (and I just recalled it was Friday the 13th XD). In the meantime I've to recover from insect bites (probably because I slept without air-con during the camp).

Anyway, I think my vastus lateralis muscle is really large compared to the rest of the quads. I'm still not sure what function it serves (relative to the others). Though, it don't seem to be helping me pass standing broad jump, so maybe I have to train the others.

Besides all that, the only camp I have during this 'holiday' is over. I managed to re-familiarize myself with most math topics. The coming week will require me to turn to Physics, and attend Geography lessons twice.

I was told to enjoy my last June Holiday. However I cannot, for I did enjoy the school term slacking away, and now I must make up for it. Alas! I wish I would quickly reach that state where I enjoy doing papers! I did that at least once, but the prerequisite is to absolutely know the syllabus. Then I can comfortable fill papers with answers.

Somebody suggest a song so that I may place it's tune on the KS blog! Somebody volunteer to do up the photos too!

Days draw nearer. Plans effect. Success? I do not know. Define 'success'. Or forsake plans? The value of confidence. Yet incompentent. 'Trust'!

Distanced

2008-06-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

"When the Blue Night is over my face, on the dark side of the world in space. When I'm all alone with the stars above, you are the one I love" (and I though I did say my deposition forbids me from missing anything, it seems I was wrong)

I'm losing momentum just as I gained it. I think I need to clear non-syllabus tasks first, then I can focus. Actually, I should really just work on discipline. XD God grant me the grace I need.

It seems I'm posting far too often. I hereby declare a hiatus, which will last until my next post (duh). Soon after, I shall launch not one blog but two. A replacement (to the current) at Blogger will continue to be my general log, while a page at WordPress will function for articles.

Anyway, I've missed the e-Balloting for NDP tickets yet again. I must record it here that it was from 16 May to 25 May, and perhaps I'll not forget in the coming years. Nonetheless, here's a video. I've long been trying to get the songtrack, but perhaps it's copyrighted.. here's the next best alternative:

disheartened

2008-06-08T22:10:00.002+08:00

Data. When can I have the confidence to do without it?
Did you go back on your word, or were you constrained? I wish I knew. If the latter, I wish I was there, for you.

Half the holiday has passed. I can only say that the state of my studies is still at Common Test One. What time remains must be used to improve my academic standards, and accomplish remaining tasks. On top of all that, I fear I'm gaining weight again.

The coming week will see the KS Mini-Retreat, and the Study Camp alongside it. I have pushed for the SC, and I do hope it will be for the benefit of those attending. To that end I will have to affirm a position based on the real-time situation - presumption is not advised. In practice, I will ensure people work if they slack, or help those who are pushing themselves hard. Now I guess I'll have to pray for wisdom to do so.

Persons are beginning to make attempts at persuading the subject to travel beyond borders. I will move to halt this folly once primary concerns are cleared.

Tomorrow I shall strive to awake at an early hour.

Peanuts

2008-06-07T10:40:00.003+08:00

distractions abound! the irony in reading of the Devourer

I haven't posted in a while. I just didn't feel like it. Now on Wednesday I went to buy me some packets of peanuts. I picked different brands, so I'll be finding out which I like best. Apparently I like salty, but not too much. Then there's flavour; and whether the shell break, not shatter.

Thursday and Friday were not spent usefully. I'm hoping today can be spent efficiently, so I'll end the post.

EDIT: The Bible study went good, praise be to the Lord.

The Undead

2008-05-31T10:55:00.000+08:00

hmm.. nothing much to say here, I'll just put this up (and it adds to my post count too!)

dissent

2008-05-29T20:25:00.000+08:00

I have to stop stressing over being incompetent, and accept that I am thus, thereby allowing me to trust in the Lord.

I have begun revision, by means of completing a Math paper (which was supposed to be practice for the test earlier in March). Still, it is in my hopes that the steady type of work Math presents will help me to adjust back to studying; then I will progress to the more concept-based subjects of Physics and Chemistry. I have not been able to edit the Robotics website yet, should it come to the worst I'll have to type out all the plans and submit it as my work.

Just now I have browsed through articles and posts, many of which I do disagree with. It was in my opinion that Chee Soon Juan is displaying a poor Christian testimonial, what with his spouting arguments (nonsense or otherwise) and then claiming he got nothing to lose as his Christian faith will keep him. (an' I'm tempted to say it is but nominal, but for charity's sake I will say he is misled) He would do better to observe the advice the Bible gives about submitting to the governing authority, and not publicising half-truths or issues without a well-researched backing. The above thoughts have been rather tested as I have read people's comments on his actions as needed attempts to free up Singapore. It seems true, then, that I am rather conservative, but I don't think Singapore needs drastic changing.

Besides the substantial anti-PAP netizen base, there were other websites that I chanced upon that filled me with some anxiety. It seems that the work of the ministry is being redefined in many churches to drift away from dogma, focusing on application. This is due to the average person's disinterest in theology (and by extension, the world's disinterest in God). Whilst I agree that application is very crucial to produce a good testimony, a sturdy foundation in the teachings of the Bible must come first, so that the works performed would be righteous. Of course, I would that all people will see that it is necessary to find out the reasons for oneself whether an act is right or wrong, not merely trusting what a minister says is his conclusion. So I would advocate guidance rather than 'spoon-feeding' or ignorance.

I never though I'd type this, but I'll stop here and 'get back to work'. XD

I.. Unsound

2008-05-28T09:35:00.000+08:00

A sound heart is the life of the flesh: but envy the rottenness of the bones. - Proverbs 14:30

Still little has been worked upon, except maybe in maintaining fitness. My arms are currently aching, apparently they are not used to performing the final portion of a proper pull-up (because I tend to use momentum to get my head above the bar, or just reach with the chin). So I must have stressed them yesterday. However I don't think my pull-up count has improved, while I'm still trying for 7.

My table is sufficiently cleared now. I shall start on revision (or vision, since it'll be the first time I learn some concepts XD) soon. I hope that the temperatures will not soar in the afternoons, where the sun eventually shines into my room.

start here

2008-05-26T17:10:00.001+08:00

"This is the way the world ends."

The 'break' has begun, and I have already been distracted. I have taken interest once again in Halo, and the original soundtrack. Besides that, I have spent some time clearing out my room. I've disposed of some stuff, but I think I simply hid/stored away too much more. Nonetheless my goal is to clear a platform where I can study upon.

Everytime I go out for a dinner, or am told an opportunity to travel, I find myself trying to turn away. It is becoming plain to me that it is unlikely I will 'enjoy' the 'comforts' available to the upper-middle class in the future. Hence I do not want to get used to it. I do not know why I have a slight distaste for wealth, but I know it will never be able to motivate me in various pursuits. As it is no sin to choose simplicity, I will hope that I shall be given a path that can accommodate both that objective and what talents I am to use.

Full Day Out

2008-05-23T22:45:00.004+08:00

It's.. just not easy

We finally received a full day off from Ah Meng. He still owes us a few more. Anyway, the class scattered almost the moment we were dismissed. Such is the poor class cohesion some have noted. Of course, half the guys clustered together and went out as a group to 'celebrate'. We first went to play pool, which I did okay, although I fared worse as time wore on. I still haven't figured out why.

Afterwards, a group of four went to my place, where we played bridge and then monopoly. Despite CG and I bequeathing property to CY as we went bankrupt one by one, we were all beat by Chen. We finally gave up when CY threw a 6,4 to land on an expensive site. CG wasn't about to give in, so he argued for another chance, rolling 6,4 too. I thought I'd take a go too, and also rolled 6,4. Just look at it, WHAT ARE THE ODDS OF THAT?! XD So we granted Chen his win and left, late for Ben & Jerry's.

Then at Cathay, just over half the class shared the vouchers won by some photo-taking competition. Now I was thinking we'd all be over-stuffed with ice-cream, but this was not the case. Apparently the outlet did not have stock of tubs of ice-cream, so we got dishes. Although the deco was nice, it was way overpriced for the amount of ice-cream. I'm a bit put off, but I suppose it would be more fattening if we had got tubs (which may be double the quantity).

The class soon disintegrated (or differentiated) again; I went along with some of the guys. After we lunched, we wandered around Plaza Singapura, dropping by a noisy games arcade. Then I left to take a bus back to school to sell flowers.

Okay, now I'm faced with the challenge to trying to describe HTML skills that takes experience to understand, not words XD. The first one is easier than the next.

To post videos. Look at the page with your video. If you're on the video's main page, you'll see a sidebar with information on the video. Somewhere along it you'll see a length of code under the word Embed. Click it, then press Ctrl-C to copy the code. Go to your new/edit post and look to the right of the the title blank. You'll see the words 'Edit Html' and 'Compose'. Click on the Edit Html tab. Scroll to the spot you want the video to be and press Ctrl-V to paste the code. The video will now be part of your post. Note that some videos won't allow you the Embed option, you can't do anything about that but link to that site.

To put up music. There are many ways to get music playing. Mine is probably a more professional method than most. I suggest asking other people for good websites that can help you with music (both the how-to and uploading) if you can't get what I'm about to type. Now, I choose from my collection of tracks which song I would like to put as a background music. [Optional step: decrease the file size (compromising quality) with Windows Audio Converter.] Then I go to my Geocities account to host the track there. After I upload the track, I copy it's link and then use the HTML embed tag to make the track live on the blog. The code to place in your Template is <embed align="right" src="http://sample host/You_Raise_Me_Up.wma" width="150" height="25" loop="NONE" autostart="TRUE"></embed>. Vary the code to change it's size and position, loop and autostart.

Yesterday I went to cheer on the Girls' Hockey team; my arms and shoulders are aching slightly from the encounter. I finally got hands on the flag, and I swung it almost throughout the game. VJC won 1-0 over SAJC, making it a 6-time Champion streak. I feel a bit sad for SAJC, their guys also lost 0-1 to RJC and their supporters had to cheer for both games. Though, it was all expected. On the bright side, at least they're number 2. What I've heard is that SAJC is comparatively stronger in Hockey and Soccer because their best runners don't feel like SAJC Track is good enough. Can this be verified?

Actually, if one might notice, VJC may be better in the girls' sports than the guys'. For example, the Soccer and Hockey girls' teams won the championships, but the guys made 2nd and 3rd respectively. There might be an obvious reason: VJC has significantly more girls than guys, resulting in a larger pool to seek out talent. Of course, that the guys can still do this well also shows a lot. Ah well.. too bad I can't do sport, so I'm left with shouting cheers from the stands.

Transient

2008-05-21T21:45:00.003+08:00

Much of what I do shall fade away, I refuse to hold them dear, detaching myself away..

The match today was intense. VJC lost 2-1, but I will say that our guys played with more sportsmanship, ya know, less violently. With regard to cheering, I can't say who did the louder, since I wasn't in the middle of the stands. However MJC seemed to only cheer wildly at the start and finish. Of course, the Meridians were far more organised, what with most everybody seated, especially at the upper stands. On the other hand, others may say that VJC shows it's enthusiasm by not being so rigid and letting everyone loose, but I think something needs to be done about the upper stands.

Of course, about MJC's win, I think they need it. Having lost the finals for the last 2 years, they've gotta win sometime.. though I don't think their players deserve it. They were excessively rowdy after time-out, not to mention rough play. Anyway, a PE teacher said the MJC team was largely DSA, I'm not sure if it's exaggeration. I've heard one refutal, would anybody like to help clear things out?

Now I didn't manage to get my hands on the flag. I don't think the flagbearers did a good job either. Some lack of meritocracy, what with all the translucent red tape. I eventually got over disappointment, realising little actually mattered (swing or not, win or not), then I stood and shouted myself a bit hoarse. I recovered already; see, I don't lose voice easily. Oh, and despite all my talk about soccer lately, no, I still generally dislike the game. To cite a mathematical reason, the infrequency of goals leave a high margin of error in rewarding the best team.

After the game, I waited to board a coach back to VJC. There wasn't enough space for all on the last bus, so I volunteered to get off the bus which was packed with foreign scholars. We were told another coach would come, but I sorta knew it was an empty promise. So it was, and I left to take public transport back, having lost time which might have been better spent. Yet such is life, I guess, where imperfection afflicts everything..

Semester 1 Term 2 is passing. There will soon be only a quarter of my JC life left. The holidays ahead shall have to be my most pressuring ever. By the way, KS' Study Camp isn't going to have registration forms. We don't really need their parent's consent at their age, nor do I want to chase people to attend. However, the fee of $10 will still be there.

15 more posts to 200 (total 300)! Then I'll get a revamp, which is scheduled to begin on the day Earth is furthest from the Sun.

Garden Politics

2008-05-20T21:05:00.004+08:00

"The kingdom of heaven is like unto treasure hid in a field; the which when a man hath found, he hideth, and for joy thereof goeth and selleth all that he hath, and buyeth that field.
Again, the kingdom of heaven is like unto a merchant man, seeking goodly pearls: Who, when he had found one pearl of great price, went and sold all that he had, and bought it."

Likewise, I seem to have found in you spiritual wealth, and I wish to leave off all others, that you may be second only to Christ in my life.

"For we are saved by hope: but 'hope' that is seen is not hope: for what a man seeth, why doth he yet hope for? But if we hope for that we see not, then do we with patience wait for it."

Likewise, I hope that my waiting shall not be in vain, though I cannot clearly see the ways of your heart.

Now do I realise that the words of the Bible with regard to the promise of heaven can oft be applied to life, so long as the motive is kept free from the flesh. However, I must make mention that it is still to fear the Lord, seeking heaven, that those verses point to, and thus I will try to follow it's wisdom firstly in the raw sense.

Today Horticulture Society did out it's ExCo elections, and the J2's have more-or-less settled the positions of the next batch of leaders. I played a game of politics, and the outcome has been precisely reflected by the vote I cast. The process did require me to interrogate, bring up points at the right time, and assess the views of others. Of course, I have not really effected much, for I believe that the positions I concluded upon are largely based on each individual's ability set, so I am merely helping to establish their status (and prevent inefficiency). Hence I do hope that the right people are in the right jobs.

Meh! I still haven't come to fully accept I fell asleep in Geography lecture today! All I did was to lay down, close my eyes for a second, experienced thoughts and situations flashing through my head (probably dreams), and then sit up to realise more than half the lecture had past. Of course, I didn't miss out much, seeing as it was about global warming and the greenhouse effect - something most of us know too much about already. But still! XD It seemed only an instant of rest! I did feel better after the nap though..

The guys' soccer finals will take place tomorrow. I have not prepared what props we were suggested to make for use in support, but perhaps I will be allowed the honour of swinging the flag. Personally I feel that flags swung in sync are a good source of encouragement for those shouting cheers. Although, on my part, I am quite capable of cheering loudly while swinging a flag.

VFT

2008-05-15T18:05:00.004+08:00

"time is a valuable thing"
I must properly use it, lest I fall behind

Yesterday I (with most of my school) went to watch the girls' soccer finals between VJC and SAJC. It was drawn 1-1, then VJC won the penalty kicks. I think SAJC wasn't in a good condition (but also displayed occasional un-saintly behaviour [though once both sides traded acts of goodwill]), but either way the game was plagued with players on both sides falling, sometimes rolling over and getting replaced. The goal VJC let in was somewhat by accident, though not as bad as last year's accident. Oh, and I really do hate penalty kicks.

It seems that I've reached the point where I need to choose a new book to DYD on. I initially considered Job, but to study difficult passages will take a chunk out of my time. It's not the right year. Psalms is also appealing, but I'm not sure. Any suggestions?

There's not much else to post about right now. I guess the Study Camp will receive the go-ahead, since I've found a few people to join. I hope it'll all turn out okay. I've been losing weight, but it may be because I'm losing muscles. As I've typed before, my physical ground state is probably quite low.

I will no longer pursue the manifestation. Not until I am stablished, leastways.

Still

2008-05-11T20:55:00.000+08:00

often I don't comprehend how I manage to take all these responsibilities upon myself.. now, I desire calm

It's now just over a week since cyclonic storm Nargis struck Burma. I feel a special bond with this event since I did track the storm's development a fortnight ago. Despite the desolation wrought upon the delta, I believe God sent Nargis for the good of Christians. In all hopes, Buddhism's hold on the land may be broken. Therefore, I dedicate this post to the elect in Burma.

Hide me now
Under your wings
Cover me
Within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise and thunders roar
I will soar with you above the storm
Father you are king over the flood
I will be still and know you are God

Find rest my soul
In Christ alone
Know his power
In quietness and trust

a rift

2008-05-10T11:40:00.002+08:00

Again I fall, my eyes, then my flesh.

O God, thou knowest my foolishness; and my sins are not hid from thee. - Psalms 69:5

Yesterday was a filled day. I failed my NAPFA again due to STB, and then played badminton until my shirt was unuusally wet. Later in the afternoon, my team lost the interhouse debate by a narrow margin. I'd put it on a lack of time for preparation. The next time we will debate is on Monday, where we oppose that 'men are now the weak sex'. Afterwards, I helped out at a concert flower sale by HortiCulture Society. We didn't buy enough flowers to resell.

So that was the news on my life. Now let's consider something I have noticed. According to the schedules, the KS' Mini-Retreat will overlap the CERC Church Camp, while the CK Retreat will overlap the FERC Church Camp. This effectively prevents many teenagers from attending the youths' camp of the other church (although there weren't formal invites, but that's not the issue). I had hoped co-operation would lead to discussions before plans were cemented. Still, I doubt that there were divisive motives behind this, but mere co-incidence.

However, I question, does it reflect the wishes of some leaders and parents? That the youth of both churches might be discouraged from mixing? Or perhaps, this lack of interest for promoting bonding is an unconcious act of negligence? That may stem from a distaste for the memories of the conflicts in the past. Either way, the effect pronouced on the youth is not good. Christian communities around the world have been oft regarded as narrow-minded and inclusive (not only to non-christians, but also toward other denominations). Here, both churches may be unknowingly taking steps for the youth to see each other as such. No, that is not necessary; this is merely hiding your lamp under a bush for fear the wind would blow it out (or in our case, that your light might be 'contaminated' by another - a silly excuse).

Guilt would be found on both sides, but I'd rather not discuss fault. Instead, as the situation ought to be rectified, I shall try to consider basic measures we must take to achieve strong ties even in the future. Above all, is charity. Christian charity cannot be reserved only for those amongst your congregation. With that in mind, I would that people start to reach out. While that may occur in kind, prayer one for another should also be desired. We trust that we do pray to the same one God, therefore it is unto much good that we entrust each other unto the Lord. All this applies especially to the mature among the congregations, for it is they that show an example for the young.

I may seem to type of forgetting doctrinal differences, but no, it is Christian unity which I propose. Such has been greatly underrated due to excessive ecumenical movements, but we must not forget each other. Again, I note there would be a resistance, but curse politics: we must seek to do good unto them who are of the household of faith.

Yet Alone

2008-05-05T16:50:00.001+08:00

to go it alone, for I do learn from but 2 teachers

No teacher ought to ever tell me to do work or stay out of class. It's obvious which choice I would pick. Since the event has already occurred once again, I will take it upon myself to learn more efficiently than most others. That responsibility shouldn't always be handed over to teachers, especially when practice (and not concept) is the key factor.

Lately the weather has been rather dry here in Singapore. I hope that will change soon. However, just northwest Yangon has been directly struck by a Category 4 Typhoon. I've managed to collect a fair amount of data on tropical cyclone Nargis' development, but I don't know the extent of the damage yet. It could be a worthwhile case study, except where disaster mitigation is concerned.

I've sorta discovered how to change the play speed of Windows Media Player. It's fun changing the speed of tracks, especially of WAV files. Do try it out.

I'm still rather disturbed by a dream experienced on Saturday morning. I didn't feel ready to blog about it then, and I don't think I am now. But to record it down, I've transcribed the dream into a text file. The file can be read by CLICKING HERE.

Now the letters I've assigned the anonymous people aren't supposed to mean much, so don't get ideas (and no, I've enough sense not to use people's initials). Actually, I sincerely wish nobody guesses right: it's not yet time.

the Decline of Man

2008-05-03T15:15:00.010+08:00

Prehistoric - we so often hear this term being used to describe very old objects or a time very long ago. Yet, prehistory never existed, because ever since God created the Earth and instituted the concept of time, there was history. What was before time cannot be comprehended or described as 'prehistory' simply because the premise of time cannot be applied to a timeless dimension.

How then do we usually imagine our most ancient ancestors to be? Stupid lumbering (albeit muscular) bipeds? This secular view is wrong, yet it is so widespread that we tend to think of ourselves as the apex of human history, being more advanced than prehistoric Man. No, Man was never primitive. While it is true that we are technologically advanced compared to our ancestors, we can't really say that society as a whole has developed positively (unlike what evolutionists would have us think).

Let us examine things from the very start. God created Man good and in His image. Certainly this would entail gifting humanity with much intelligence, strength, and a good set of moral principles. However Man rebelled and sinned against God, invoking a curse from God upon Creation. Thereafter, Man regressed from his former noble position. With this in mind, we can reason why Man would have lost much of the mentioned gifts. This is how that occurred:

Intelligence. We always see our generation as the most intelligent, having amassed knowledge from across centuries. This is far from reality. Students may do well in tests, but rarely are they shown to be more effective workers. Often what we learn in school is forgotten in a couple of years. In all, people nowadays tend to have a desperate lack of common sense and memory prowess. Sure, we live in modern buildings and use computers, but what if electricity wasn't available to us? Our form of networking would fall apart, and humanity as a whole.

Meanwhile, nobody has figured how the pyramids were built. Or the other massive construction projects carried out about the world by the ancients. Also, the extensive use of traditional medicine in the past underlies their knowledge of herbs and body anatomy then, while their astronomy and navigation skills were impressive too. The ancients' word-of-mouth communication must also be accurate, for writings wasn't easily reproduced. For example, we can't even get a chinese whisper past a chain of 20 people, while Moses had to command a million men!

Physical status. Humans aren't really living longer. Instead, health care has only managed to restore the 70-80 life expectancy indicated by the Bible. Conversely, it is recorded that people before the flood regularly lived centuries, though that age depreciated to 120 soon after the flood and later to 70-80. In addition, genetic defects accumulate with each generation, while genes are lost through genetic shift. This helps to show that since the Fall, each generation displays signs of aging more quickly.

As to ability, it's easy for us to see that our physical conditioning disappears rapidly without frequent training. On the contrary, athletes in the past took part in sports much more grueling than ours, probably displaying greater strength and skill. Our senses have probably degraded too. Many of us are myopic, but some of our ancestors who did cave-painting drew precise images in a dim cave! The other senses of hearing and smelling have also degraded considerably, where we sometimes cannot differentiate notes or scents.

Morality. Do we often bear the notion that the ancients were barbarians? That is the product of evolution teaching that human society has progressed, away from a dog eat dog world into mutually benefiting communities. Yet that doesn't hold true: social cohesion is falling apart, especially in the face of greater 'freedom of speech/expression', where people plainly declare they don't agree.

Little needs to be said about morality. Humans, ever since the Fall, have always been prone to sinning. A while before the Flood people were already carrying out violence. We think we have laws now which reduce crime, making us a better society than centuries ago, but a major problem now is the legalisation of sins. Murders still exist today, although they are often more subtle in the form of abortion and exploitation. No, mankind has not improved; 'loving thy neighbour' hardly exists beyond religious ideals.

Is there evidence for the highly advanced state of Man in the earliest days? Well, we do have some archaeological discoveries, though they are often eclipsed by the latest news in ape-to-man models. Aside from all that, we have the Bible (which is often disregarded as a credible source by some scientific communities). It is recorded in Genesis 3 that Cain's descendants were masters of different trades, so soon after the Earth came into existence. Doubtless the other people of the Earth shared in their technological advancements, practising animal husbandry, music and metallurgy.

Despite all the gifts God bestowed upon his special creation, mankind turned them to corrupt use, necessitating the cleansing Flood. After the Flood, decline continued. The reason why mankind perceive our ancestors to be less advanced is because we take too much pride in our discoveries and in ourselves. In the same way mankind tries to put themselves on the same level as God. The first time was in the Garden of Eden, when Eve was convinced the fruit would make people as gods. Then there was the Tower of Babel, where people sought to equal heaven. Each time God dealt out punishment. In modern times, many declare 'there is no god', effectively seeing themselves as the ultimate authority. The Lord God does not take this lightly: one day the earth will be consumed by fervent heat.

Man has lost immortality by the Fall, then brought about a catastrophic global Flood due to widespread violence. Later, the peoples of the Earth were scattered and technologically retarded by the judgement passed upon the Tower of Babel. Only in recent times have we regained the technology possessed by the ancients. Whether we have surpassed it remains in doubt, for we have traded off much experiencial knowledge in medicine, navigation, and forcasting. Neither do we match the ancients in lifespan, wits, strength, and skill. Yet, none of these talents matter if we do not see Christ Jesus as the salvation sent to Man. Our sins will bring judgement upon us, and only God can provide a way out.

Hear therefore the cry of Jeremiah in Lamentations 5:21. Though we may never reclaim the physical prosperity of mankind before the Fall, let us pray that God turn us to Him, that we may lay claim to the blood of Christ and be alongside his first children - the few ancients who stayed faithful.
Turn thou us unto thee, O LORD, and we shall be turned; renew our days as of old.

Additional resources may be found at the following sites.
http://creationwiki.org/index.php/Decline_of_humanity
http://www.nwcreation.net/videos/puzzle_of_man.html

a Restless Heart

2008-05-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

I have planned what I shall do after the positive manifestation of the sign by you: the task isn't easy, but is necessary. Yet, what happens if the sign points otherwise?

I've passed 5 NAPFA stations today, including 2.4km, but still failed STB. I think I'll be working toward 7 pull-ups by next week, when I'll probably fail STB again. At least that way I can say I suffer from a lack of impulse muscles, while being fit in terms of endurance (think comparative advantage here, since I'm not that good at endurance either).
this is why I look up to you

Yesterday the church people went out as one big group to visit some farms. I discovered that the grass fed to the goats is about as savoury as the plastic wrappers (no wonder why they can't tell the difference) - TASTELESS! (which actually means I chewed some grass to find out) Anyways, the trip was good, although I messed up when I got arrowed to lead the singing - most people were too distracted to sing along.
you left me confused..

The lack of activities tomorrow will leave me rather free. I must take the opportunity to remove my backlogs. If I don't, I'm not sure if another chance will come by soon.
how I had wanted to refer to us collectively!

THIS IS AN APPEAL TO ALL GHOST-READERS: PLEASE RELINQUISH YOUR STATUS AND DECLARE YOUR PRESENCE! THANK YOU! (this is so not going to work..)

vexed

2008-04-30T23:40:00.003+08:00

I lost courage in the face of incompetency

Today was Sports Day. I left school illegally for the first time, but had to sneak back in (at least I came back!). After which I left for the BS at church. The following wasn't particularly related to the BS, but I read it a while ago and it especially struck me this afternoon.

2 Peter 2:6-9

And [God,] turning the cities of Sodom and Gomorrha into ashes condemned them with an overthrow, making them an ensample unto those that after should live ungodly;
And delivered just Lot, vexed with the filthy conversation of the wicked:
(For that righteous man dwelling among them, in seeing and hearing, vexed his righteous soul from day to day with their unlawful deeds;)
The Lord knoweth how to deliver the godly out of temptations, and to reserve the unjust unto the day of judgment to be punished:

postparing

2008-04-27T22:40:00.000+08:00

Patience is commanded; work must be done meanwhile.
Initiating prioritisation.....

I almost forgot to type out this post. Let's start with what happened on Friday. As expected, I failed my NAPFA. Granted, I was still feeling unwell, but that doesn't excuse my STB. I need 20cm more for a D, and the teacher is saying my technique is wrong. Ah well, I'm much better at landing than launching - staying on my feet.

As of now, I'm still aching. The test did take a lot out of me. Hopefully it'll go away soon, otherwise I might just lose fitness.

I attended CKS yesterday, the show was indeed inspiring, though it did accuse my conscience somewhat. After activities I did speak some stuffs I feel guilty of. Disturbed, I also missed a bus, and then got caught in a jam. I could put the blame on disorientation from the illness, but I'd rather not. There are 2 underlying issues I know I have to address. One, it is sinful for me to live slothfully, and worse to advocate it. Two, God showed me I need to have patience, plus, rely on him and not on my ability. With these aspects of my life having been made plain, it is imperative I attempt to resolve it, and I will push for it.

The coming week will not be usual, what with a vacation. Only one way to see how it'll turn out..

VORTEX

2008-04-24T21:00:00.005+08:00

my thoughts, actions, and intents..
they cannot always spin about multiple vortex,
real, perceived, or imaginary..
lest the system collapse, let a convective centre develop!

Recently I've gone into tropical cyclones. Neoguri made landfall and dissipated last week in SE China, but I've been tracking the tropical storms Rosie and Durga south of Indonesia. It's simply amazing to study these massive (on a scale relative to us) weather systems. Of course, thank God that although here in Singapore we get loads of rain (like today), there's no extreme weather.

Today was quite busy. After lessons we did some interviews for the Robotics Club ExCo 2008. I hope my views won't clash too badly with others. Supposedly I have a gift for recognizing people's character and ability, but I might have difficulty describing such. The candidates so far aren't as good as I would have wanted, but should be adequate to lead the CCA for the next year. What goes through my mind is that we're not just picking the best leaders, but picking people who can both lead and pick the successive batch of leaders (can't differentiate that in practice).

After that ended late in the late afternoon, I went with 2 classmates to take part in an intra-school academic contest. The questions were difficult, but I did pretty well (or maybe I guessed good). Too bad the team score was pulled down. But that don't matter, for 2 reasons. One, I felt the questions were quite unfair, lacking biology or many arts questions. This advantages students with certain subject combination. If a contest is not credible in my sight I lose respect for it. Two, I managed to share a Creation magazine with someone, based on a question about stars. Definitely building the Kingdom has greater consequences than winning this competition.

I left school soon after, jogging back with a 5kg backpack on my back. XD

Since yesterday I gained a better interest and appreciation of rap (and a bit of hip-hop). I don't like rap battles, that's basically insult-spitting as an art, but still insult-spitting. It's cool to think fast and move fast, but I'd like to stay away from rashness. If I find the time I'll practice freestyle rapping in a 'nicer' way. Meanwhile my legs don't seem to be able to become nimble.. (I think I'll stop typing here, I don't wanna groan about NAPFA before [failing] the actual test tomorrow)

[insert update at 2215]

XD I've just received word that CKS is screening Chariots of Fire on saturday. So now I may choose between that or CK's (the difference an apostrophe makes) devotional workshop. It's exam season, the workshop might be poorly attended.. CKS is new, might this be the first overlapping of schedules? (and to think, KS and KSS got perturbed over a clash of schedules last month [which was later resolved]) sorry, I'm sleepy and all that's coming out are my thoughts.. hahaz

Search & Research

2008-04-21T20:10:00.001+08:00

your warmth may be chill,
and your thoughts are still.
yet, I sense and feel;
but what would I will?

I dislike research for one reason, it seldom yields results that help me choose one option or the other.

I've come down with a flu. My nostrils are simply flowing fluids. I hope it will go away in a few days, there are things I need to do. However I think it may be a particularly contagious strain, since I've heard a sickness has been spreading around. Meh, with all my sneezing I may well be a super-infector..

My CCA commitments are drawing to an end; here is a summary of what I have done. I may sound as though I am seeking recognition: if that were so, then would I not have fought for leadership positions? Nonetheless I will publish this.

Now Chemistry Society never really meant much to me, since I sorta missed out on the crystal growing competition (being held every 2 years doesn't give me a chance). I did little, but still more than I was obliged to, and so my part ended with helping out in the Science Quest competition.

Horticulture Society essentially displays my interest in plants. As tomorrow is Earth Day, we have worked to put up an exhibition and plant sale. With the passing of that event I will gradually disappear from meetings, yet I intend to stay longer than I have to.

As a matter of history I was literally pulled into Robotics Club. However, I have remained and benefitted the CCA. My final act will be to put up a website for the CCA, and I will make it a worthwhile work.

I'm at 4 pull-ups now! One more improvement to pass!

1-way trip

2008-04-19T19:50:00.002+08:00

was it the sign? perhaps, but the consequence of the sign is to discriminate, not to identify..
might I have to play a role in other manifestations? looking back, I have already done so indirectly

Joh mentioned that when bloggers post things in small/unintelligible font, or in italics, it's meant for their crush/enemy. Just so you know, often my words are my reflections, making sense to nobody but me. And it's all the more fun if others (including you, the reader) wonder about I mysteriously refer to. meh!

I packed today with activities, although I'm supposed to be free without a KS meeting. In the morning I left to find another barber to fix my hair. Apparently the barber I had patronised earlier only cut my hair short around the edges, and not the centre, giving me a lousy appearance. I've thus paid extra for one round of hair loss, but I won't let that happen again.

Biking now seems to have it's advantages, a measure of freedom of travel, without polluting the environment like cars. I've taken to the roads instead of the sidewalks, slightly risky but somehow more convenient. After showering off the bits of hair, I left again just before noon. Now my EZ-link card had gone dry on Friday, so I went to top it up by cycling to an MRT station. Thank God it was cloudy, otherwise I'd be overheated.

Remaining free for the rest of the afternoon, I got myself invited to the Bible study CK had. (that sounds almost like I invited myself, but just almost) haha, I hope I'll be invited for next week's workshop, and then not on my suggestion. I found the fellowship somewhat different, but still warm.

I'm aching again from physical exertion. Does this happen to everyone, or am I just too sedentary? I've a feeling my physical ground state is quite low: I lose condition quickly. Or perhaps the intensity of the PE is increasing. With NAPFA just next week, I was made to do 6 rounds twice yesterday.

I've just taken a look at my NAPFA requirements for my age. It really seems that the best I can reach is a pass. XD 222cm for SBJ is a long way.. Apparently I've to manage 5 pull-ups too. I guess it thus sets the definition for 'challenge'.

PSYCHE

2008-04-17T23:15:00.002+08:00

that I may alway sense what is within

Earlier this evening I went out to cycle to an area along Marine Parade Road. The 'expedition' met all it's objectives. I've obtained green beans (or mung beans), I'm hoping I can use their root nodules to fertilise soils. In addition, I bought some paperclips for the KS 'tagboard' thingy. I hope it'll stop the messages from peeling. Finally, I got some shorter hair (and tipped the barber afterwards).

NAPFA is coming round again. As to my estimate of how many tests I'll pass, it's as good as rolling a die. I must make at least a D for all tests, but I still remain doubtful. The standing broad jump will prove challenging; I simply lack the impulse and technique.

pressured

2008-04-16T23:55:00.000+08:00

someone tell me again why I keep deciding to take things upon myself?

Typing this early in the morning is so not me. But since I'm no longer sleepy ('coS I've gone into an awake but zombie-like state, and also on the verge of insanity) so I'll type a bit.

I've been kept up by all the researching data for an exhibition. Apparently I'm not used to this kind of stuff, too much information flowing in every direction. I hope the exhibition goes well, this much effort has been put in. On a brighter note, I've learnt how to use OpenOffice slightly better.

I may fall ill soon, there's a virus in the house. I'll try to ward off the symptoms, but there's no telling if it will gain a foothold in me.

Now for some basic physics which show why stars can't form on their own. Take the equation PV=NkT. Rearranging, we'll see that pressure is proportional to the product of temperature and density. For a bunch of gases in a nebula to start thermodynamic fusion, a high pressure must be developed. Now an increase in pressure would correlate to an increase in temperature and density. But we're talking about gases in space here! Gases in space naturally expand 'infinitely', ie, gases take up the volume of their containing space. Hence the gases of a nebula would rather undergo expansion than gathering together, in the process experiencing volume cooling. Thus stars can never form from gases collapsing into a point - gases would rather move the other way. Without an external force pulling the gases together stars won't come into existence.

mendicANT bias

2008-04-12T12:15:00.001+08:00

For eons I have watched as you misinterpreted. This is not reclamation, this is reclaimer.

I found out today that the ants decided to set up nest in my drawer! A number of small towels were infested. I dealt with them as the Forerunner dealt with the Flood: extermination. Freshly boiled water cooked every last one of the biologicals. Apparently I found no queen ant amidst all the eggs. This suggests that multiple infestations exist, and I merely destroyed a hatchery. Still, I consider it a major victory against this parasite.

Yesterday the results for Project Work were released. I attained a C. Lower than I would expect of myself, but still I am thankful to God. Finally that useless subject can be forgotten (mostly anyways). My lesser standards were probably due to not meeting the framework they wanted. Also, it shows my teamwork isn't very good (and that is true). But then again, planning for hypothetical events is silly, so I'm not concerned that it reflects my capacity to do real projects (which is yet untested).

I've not told my parents yet. It seems inconsequencial whether I do so or not. Apparently many of classmates were quite unhappy, even with a B grade. Some feared for their future, while some feared their parent's reactions. Still others thought that other classmates didn't recieve what was due to their effort.

Seeing as this subject didn't immediately show "for whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap", I think it isn't worth worrying over; the true effects are displayed in ways more than letters "A", "B", "C", "D", etc.

These aches from yesterday's PE are intensifying.. XD

Lungless Frog

2008-04-10T19:10:00.002+08:00

Just this morning, if you do pick up the Straits Times, I spotted an article describing the discovery of a species of lungless frogs (Barbourula kalimantanensis) by an NUS research team. While there are 3 other lungless vertebrates already discovered, this is the first recorded frog species to lack such organs.

Supposedly the lack of lungs benefited the frog in that a source of buoyancy (air in lungs) was removed. This allows the frog to remain on the riverbed in turbulent currents. In addition, the relative 'flatness' of the frog gave it more surface area through which gas exchange could occur, to compensate for it's lunglessness.

Though as interesting as this unique creature is, it was the attached evolutionary tag that prompted me to type this post, for the frog was described as making evolutionary history (being an unusual specimen). That is most disturbing: it shows that the ideas of evolution have so contaminated biology that even a new discovery is said to display evolution. Undoubtedly there are possible explanations to the creature's apparent 'disability', without having to resort to evolution, as described below.

The frog was intelligently designed to survive in a particular habitat (one of cold oxygen-rich but fast waters).
The frog's ancestors have indeed undergone mutation(s) such that their DNA is no longer able to cause lungs to develop. However this is a degenerative loss of genetic information, although it would seem beneficial to the frog in it's environment. This adaptation cannot amount to evolution as nothing new has been developed, instead an organ has been 'amputated' genetically.

As may be drawn from the presentation of information in the article, the development of the frog was factually described as a product of evolution. Therein lies the danger; giving the process of evolution as the reason behind the frog's existence so very subtly changes people's worldviews - one of an eons-old earth. This practically undermines a person's belief in God, as attributing the uniqueness of a creature to anything but God is denying his power in Creation.

The lesson here is that a person ought to be discerning: even a regulated media such as Singapore's may well publish inaccurate articles, claiming the unverified to be true. Also, it shows persecution still exists despite our relative peace, taking the form of the concept of a world without God.

On the bright side, the scientists still seem to somewhat recognise their (and our) position as stewards of the earth. Conservative measures are likely to be carried out in the endangered frog's habitat soon. Despite that, I am still reminded of a particular verse, Romans 8:22 "For we know that the whole creation groaneth and travaileth in pain together until now. " Verily from the fall of man onwards sin plagues so many things. Regarding this issue of a lungless frog, human weakness can be seen in the following:

The exploitation of the environment (mining and deforestation) leading to a decrease in habitat area of the frog.
The deceived, God-rejecting, mindset of the scientists.
The ease at which ideas of evolution and eons is published as fact.
If the frog is a product of mutation, that such degeneration occurs.

Articles about the discovery may be found at the following websites. Note that all these articles possess an evolutionary bias.
http://www.straitstimes.com/Free/Story/STIStory_225610.html
http://www.nus.edu.sg/corporate/research/gallery/research137.htm
http://news.nationalgeographic.com/news/2008/04/080407-lungless-frog_2.html

Insolation

2008-04-06T16:30:00.003+08:00

you didn't catch my eye at first, but now my heart yearns to know yours

I feel very lethargic and can't quite pinpoint the cause. I feel sleepy, and the heat of the day is oppressive. So I decided to post 'coS I can't think of much else to do. (schoolwork doesn't count right now)

My weight is going back up. I hate the way some people try to put so much food in front of my face. I always make sure plates are emptied before I leave, and hence I will not consider any restraint once I start. The only way for me to eat less is to avoid getting food in the first place, and that's not easy during the weekends.

I think I should get a haircut soon. Not that I need it, but it makes more sense in this sort of weather. I'll also cut some toenail so I won't get hurt getting used to my new shoes.

oh and XD. Nafisah I just read your post and we seemed to have made a few similar points.. but (in case you ask) that's not intentional! Blame the weather.

XD (again) I just remembered to blog this up! Thank you Jessie for the souvenir thingy! uh, whatever it does.. maybe I'll use it to practice my poor ball-sense.

Increment

2008-04-04T23:05:00.001+08:00

I'll try to remember your face..

XD I'll try not to play badminton in track shoes again. My large toe kept bashing itself. Well, I hope next friday will be better. And then I won't have to pon 3rd period PE like I did today.

Tomorrow I'll be going early with the CCA to some farm to get herbs. I hope it won't be too boring. Usually I get entertained in a small group or by myself, not by a lecturing guide. This farm is in the west (almost next to Khatib), so find my way to KS afterwards.

Recently I've been contemplating, what if I were granted an common/ordinary/normal place in life? Would I find more peace and joy? Is it still possible for me to assume such a position? Then, to what extent is my destiny of being outstanding? How may I achive thus? Perhaps these questions are coming because I've settled the 'why', so I should follow it up. Ah well, time will show..

Ant Killer

2008-04-03T16:15:00.001+08:00

would they consider it a favour? or is the answer to that question inconsequential?

Last Saturday I bought some ant poison. I only put it out late yesterday afternoon, along with a mentos bait. I've been rather annoyed by the creatures continually swarming my stocks of sweets (forcing me to throw away even tubes that were almost full). Besides, ants aren't supposed to live 25 storeys above the ground. I think it's worked to some extent: I saw a few ant bodies. However I'm not sure if the poison reached the queen, but I'm glad their numbers are decimated.

Today I went to the Central Manpower Base for NS Medical Check-Up. I won't elaborate, because this information is meant mostly for guys, and then I'd rather say it then type it. This though, my short term memory is quite poor (as was also reflected in a psychological assessment I took years ago). The entire check-up took half the time that they estimated. Probably because I came early, hence there were no long queues. So I went back to school for a few lessons. Could've left for home, but ah well.. I think I waste too much time at home.

Anyway, I recently got new shoes. I'm still trying to get used to them, but for now my sole is feeling weird. XD

Crash & Burn

2008-03-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

I plan to be busy.

I've not much to post about. So I'll just put up a song and lyrics. Apparently I scanned through all the files I have by Savage Garden. Initially I had expected them to be fast like 'I Want You', but was quite disappointed. Nonetheless a couple aren't that bad, this is one of them.

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

'Cause there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

deGraded

2008-03-25T20:50:00.002+08:00

So I'm on this part of the cycle again..?

This post is slightly overdue. I'm not sure yet, but I may decide to game a bit more before going on a general hiatus. (tho' I'll still log in to feed some pet dragon XD)

The aches have mostly gone away. My flu is slowly recovering too. So thanks be to God, I feel capable of activity already.

My results have all come back. I did better for Geography than expected, considering I revised the wrong topics, scoring above 50%. As for GP, it's worse than expected. Somehow my grammar has deteriorated. The rest of the scores are B or C. Seeing as I didn't do my tutorials, those are quite alright. But I won't let Common Test 2 have the same excuses. From what I know it's after the June holidays, I shall have to make myself free to study then.

Shoulder Blades

2008-03-20T22:30:00.000+08:00

I hope I don't gain mass soon after..

As expected I'm aching all over now. But my upper body seems to be worse than my legs. Perhaps I only bothered to thoroughly stretch my legs yesterday. XD
Due to the aches I haven't done much today at all, lazing around and watching videos. I've researched further on selected plants, and now I think that experience with growing still serves best.

The flying-ant season is likely to begin soon. I disturbed a nest of ants with water today, and was partly surprised when the air swarmed with small winged ants. A suggestion that it has to do with the sun being directly above Singapore in 2 days, or the spring equinox tomorrow. Whichever, I'd say it's a good idea to close your windows at night, or turn off the lights, to prevent the effects of ants landing everywhere under a light source (including you).

bleahx My nose is leaking. A flu might be setting in, I wonder if I'll be well tomorrow.

BoxKicking

2008-03-19T20:30:00.000+08:00

To allow my heart, and not my eyes, to be satisfied.

The kickboxing session today was intense. A muscle in the left of my left leg was strained early on, but I still pulled (since muscles don't push) ahead. I did enjoy the learning, despite it being too much like a dance, what with the movesets. I'm sure that my legs and perhaps other parts will ache tomorrow. Heh, so it's good that tomorrow is a full day off, so I can rest in bed if I'd want to.

I've sorta convinced myself to work hard for Common Test 2, but I have yet to start. Distractions are still popping up left, right, and centre. It is needful that I excel, for thus may I acquire the credentials to aid others.
Recently I gained some interest in trees. It is my wish to grow some here or there, without people's knowledge but still contributing to the environment. First I have to obtain samples of unique plants, then I'll propagate them and distribute them.

the Milky Way

2008-03-15T11:35:00.002+08:00

the Stars are merely behind the Clouds

I've little time right now, so I shall only squeeze in a small post.

Yesterday I went to do CIP at some place for intellectually disabled kids. It was fun interacting with them. We ended up talking about shows on Kids Central (eg. Spiderman, the Batman, Power Rangers, GranSazers?, etc) and drawing crap. Hope they don't miss me lolx.

Weather lately is a bit strange. The wet and cold weather was quite extreme. However expect a bit of a respite, as water can't evaporate well under cloud cover, reducing the moisture content in the air. For a day or two, anyway.

The listed tasks aren't going well. I haven't completed most of them. XD Though, at least I can still say I didn't waste much of this holiday away. My weight has dropped substantially, but this time I'd say it's because my muscles are wasting away. I'll have to solve that soon too.

depleted

2008-03-10T11:25:00.001+08:00

this is harder than I had expected

I've just returned from a jog, apparently I'm still quite far behind time. I hope the practice will show soon. On the other hand, I can't seem to do pull-ups now, and I can't think up a good reason.

I've turned biased against NTU. They had Open House on the day I went for the quiz, so I did get some goodie bags. But that's not the point: I found the quiz to be rather shoddy. Okay, so I didn't get into the finals, but it's partly because of the stupid humming/buzzing CPU I was placed next to. Imagine having a high pitched noise in your ear for an hour! My performance must have been affected. The food was okay, but I had thought there would be more. Also we were not quite provided seats or drinks. As for the format of competition, the questions each person recieved were randomised. This means that there's a 'chance' factor, and it was not compensated for as only 8 were allowed into the finals. Overall I was pissed, so I didn't stay to watch the finals, it wasn't worth my time.

The holidays have started, I've to complete my previously mentioned tasks. Somehow none of them sound like proper homework. lolz I'm such a slacker.

commoner

2008-03-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

time is limited, work of all sorts await me

My papers are finally over. I'm sure I have secured a pass in all subjects except Geography. Apparently I studied last year's topics when they were only interested in testing those learnt this year. Beyond that, I don't recall feeling much stress for the Common Test at all. Then again, I hardly get stressed by the 'unimportant' things of life.

My holidays will be packed. I think I ought put up a to-do list, otherwies I might just forget half of them. I need a measure of pressure before I get stuff done. XD
~ IEEE Island-Wide Quiz Contest
~ Robotics Club day-camp
~ Genesis Bible Study at Refuge
~ Physical Conditioning (see, I don't want to say 'Training")
~ Type essays for the KS Megazine
~ Expansion for KS website (or at least add a new/old banner)
~ Website for Robotics Club
~ Change this blog's music
~ Find people to tutor, and then tutor them for free
~ Design a shirt for some contest

Of course, I have to read the Bible, lest I fall. Also, I must remember to pray for my group members who don't turn up for Bible Studies.

LEAP

2008-02-29T19:45:00.002+08:00

if terror were corporeal, I'd lay a weapon to it

This is the leap day of this leap year. It sounds a good time to post. So here it is and you're reading it now.
Common Test will take up most of next week. I've started revising, but only started. In my current state I doubt I can get beyond an E grade. It is imperative I accelerate my learning.

Today's PE was most interesting. Due to the lightning risk we couldn't do normal PE, so they made us do the sai kang of bringing out chairs and tables from the storeroom to place beside the hall. However afterwards some of us played floorball with what time we had left. I played 2 rounds and rested the 3rd, my friends saying I ran a lot during the 2nd round, but no goals were scored against the opposing team. The matches were badly imbalanced - the other team had guys from Floorball and ODAC. Anyways, I realised I wield the stick rather unusually: perhaps I treat it as something I'd kill the ball with. Often I switch hands, and use the stick from the tip (to gain extra length to compensate for my height XD).
I typically play defense, but today I went up to midfield because most of my team weren't confident in this game and hence felt like defending. Then the running depleted my energy XD. Ah well.. in all, floorball is a good game (except the idea of a goalie without a stick), I'd join it if I retake JC. But for now I had best stick to sticks (get the pun?) of a different sort. I use bamboo for a light melee weapon, which means I really have to know how to parry. The good point is that I can use different sizes of sticks, though for now I train with a 1m pole (floorball sticks are 1.15m, hockey are 3ft). Still, I've yet to choose a favourite colour for the plastic around the pole.

Apparently I'm rather anxious over what might happen over next Saturday. I may go to NTU to represent the school in the IEEE Islandwide Quiz Contest if I have gotten past the preliminary round (which is quite likely). However I've also signed up for a 24-hour fiction writing competition organised by some CCA, which will be held from Friday to Saturday. I hope that the date may be changed if I've to go for the quiz contest, this might actually be possible as there is only one other entry into the fiction writing competition, rendering a lack of proper competition.

doldrums

2008-02-25T14:15:00.001+08:00

The sun goes down..

I've lots of time today, seeing as I didn't have to go to school for a practical assessment today (I take H1 Chemistry now). Much has passed over the weekend, I shall only give a brief of some occurences.

On Friday I took the mock NAPFA test. Only 3 stations: Standing Broad Jump, Pull-Ups, and 2.4km. Apparently I've failed all 3 stations. Well, I did donate blood the day before, but that weakness can only apply to the 2.4km. I fell short of 3 pull-ups; I need 4 to get a D grade, but I'd much prefer to get higher. As for the jump, I'm still wondering how I'm expected to jump 2.2 metres. I'll practice, but I don't know how much improvements I can make.

Saturday was the 23rd. I had signed up for the IEEE Islandwide Quiz Contest, but was only e-mailed the instructions to take the preliminary round online at 2am in the morning. Fortunately I was free, and I do check my mail.
The quiz was had questions from different subjects: Math, Physics, Chemistry, IQ and General Knowledge. Somehow the 'General Knowledge' questions turned up to be Biology questions. This gives the triple science students a distinct advantage, but as my bio ain't bad either I did okay. I scored a total of 47/60. I'm not too sure how good that is, because I would expect 50+ due to the MCQ nature of the questions.

Now I've recently returned from cycling. It was a good as there were thick clouds at noon, though it drizzled a bit on my way back. My legs failed at some point, and I don't quite know why. I ought to go stretch soon.

Thru' Heaven's Eyes

2008-02-21T16:10:00.001+08:00

So I ended up donating blood today. The fact that I'm now 18 meant I didn't have to obtain parental consent, so that gave me less hassle. Now I'm feeling rather sleepy due to the bleeding, so I won't describe. Ask me if you will later, but for now I think I'll put up the lyrics of the song currently playing.
(the lyrics are meaningful, except the line about 'winds of chance', what with the doctrine of predestination)

A single thread in a tapestry
Through its color brightly shine
Can never see its purpose
In the pattern of the grand design

And the stone that sits on the very top
Of the mountain's mighty face
Does it think it's more important
Than the stones that form the base?

So how can you see what your life is worth
Or where your value lies?
You can never see through the eyes of man
You must look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes

A lake of gold in the desert sand
Is less than a cool fresh spring
And to one lost sheep, a shepherd boy
Is greater than the richest king

If a man lose ev'rything he owns
Has he truly lost his worth?
Or is it the beginning
Of a new and brighter birth?

So how do you measure the worth of a man
In wealth or strength or size?
In how much he gained or how much he gave?
The answer will come
The answer will come to him who tries
To look at his life through heaven's eyes

And that's why we share all we have with you
Though there's little to be found
When all you've got is nothing
There's a lot to go around

No life can escape being blown about
By the winds of change and chance
And though you never know all the steps
You must learn to join the dance
You must learn to join the dance

So how do you judge what a man is worth
By what he builds or buys?
You can never see with your eyes on earth
Look through heaven's eyes
Look at your life
Look at your life
Look at your life through heaven's eyes

Offload

2008-02-20T17:46:00.004+08:00

Tasks are become clear, but it will be long ere all is cleared.

I'm still dealing with the massive load of songs I just took from my classmates 'thumb drive' (more like a palm drive). Apparently I haven't heard most of the songs in there, and I can't find time to do so. So I'm just scrolling through to see if I can find any I've heard before; since my song library is rather pathetic, I'm quite glad to obtain these files.

Today was the CCA walkabout/recruitment for the second intake. I had much more assistance than during a month and a half back, but few people signed up. As I wouldn't dare blame my 'subordinates', I'd say my booth was in a poor position, and right next to a competitor.
So I'm really worn by the talking and leading, and further more by the fact that I had to lug a lot of stuff back (notepad and speakers, and past year papers). XD However I think I'll go run a bit now, need to train for a mock test this Friday. (I still think I'll do badly regardless) I'll type more later when I return.

Okay, I'm back. I'm not sure how much distance (2km+?) I covered, but I took a break halfway to stretch. Something's queer with my right ankle now, but I think it'll pass.

My weight is still flickering about 55kg. I really hope to lower that value, but this will need me to control my eating. In addition, I need to drink lots more water.

The weather has been rather dry lately. It hasn't rained in quite a while. (passing showers don't count) I don't like this, leaves out there are all turning brown and yellow. So much for the 'tropical rainforest' climate we're supposed to have here. The wind is strong, though, and I like that. Unfortunately it keeps blowing my window shut so I can't feel cool while online.

Okay then, enough ranting. Some important things that will occur tomorrow:
Blood Donation Drive at VJC! (too bad I feel my blood is too dirty to be used)
Announcement of the first Youth Olympics host! (Moscow versus Singapore)
FULL MOON!
The anniversary of my birthday 18 years ago!

DEArTH

2008-02-16T21:40:00.001+08:00

All is barren.. Nought shall remain; regret consumes me

Yesterday was cross-country day. No lessons, although strangely there was a fire drill. Anyway, I did travel 4.8km, but I feel so unfit. I wasn't even in the top 500 positions. Thank God I was not struck by stitch, still I wish that I had the stamina to keep going. I must work for that, though, and I hope I will be able to make time for such.
One thing has been made clear to me. My muscles are rather inefficient. This is due to irregular exercise and over nutrition. Under those conditions I built muscle while gaining little strength. Reversing those conditions should improve efficiency.

Valentine's Day has once again passed. Not much occured that is worth mention. I managed to send paper roses to most of the original recipients, and a few others. Unfortunately I felt that the stalks I made were sub-standard, hence I did not distribute them. But I suppose the slight scent I gave the roses using artificial food flavouring made my work unique enough.

This website may be worth a visit. http://freerice.com/ Simply choose the correct word, and help to donate rice. All it takes is a bit of your time, while you get to learn new words. My level usually ranges at just over 35. Do try it out.

The time to begin studying is come. This must be so, for Common Tests 1 is within a few weeks. Yet I will not revise only for the topics tested, but for all, if time will allow me. I don't want to be limited by the narrow scope, although it is well-meant. In addition, this method is based on principle, and lets me help others who are not in the same school.

ideas

2008-02-08T10:50:00.000+08:00

My thoughts flow fast, I must control the turbulence!

I've decided to post today instead of on Chinese New Year. Don't ask me why. I've spent a good deal of time at the KS website lately, it's now reformatted somewhat. I finally decided on blue and red as colours for it. I've gotten more familiar to HTML again, and this time I've mastered the hexadecimal system - it's used for colours.

I've been rather busy thinking and planning the KS CNY Visitations. Corresponding over SMS isn't easy, replies aren't always fast, and I've to try to compress sentences. I think most of the outstanding issues have been settled, let's see how it plays out.

Oh, and last night I ended up chatting over Messenger to 4 Cedarians of different years. Not entirely sure how that occured, but in order of age: Hui Hong, my mortal from the junior class in VJC; Cheryl, messaging from holiday in Thailand; Sharleen, over planning for KS CNY Visitations; Jemima, over activities this weekend. I'd thought to log that down, so yea, that's done.

Fortunately I've not gained weight over this Chinese New Year. And abstained from bakwa again. However that doesn't quite mean I lost the weight gained late last year. I'll have to sort that out sometime. I'll also have to train my core body muscles soon. It's much weaker than my legs or arms.

No Peace

2008-02-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

My hand was forced; I hate the bloodstains, but reconciliation is no longer an option.

I would type out a bunch of insults here, but I am sleepy. As I was before the clash. This I will say, though. The insensitive who willfully annoy me shall not gain standing. I would have to distance myself further, and so must I do this year.

My nose might have recovered, but now phlegm is affecting my throat, indicating I've got another set of germs. I hope this will be over soon, It's always better to be in optimal condition.

Rose

2008-02-01T20:30:00.000+08:00

I must not go higher than I should.

I should update.. yea, that's now. First, weight report. I have hit record weights these few weeks, what with 56kg. Fortunately after today's PE I've struck below 54kg. I doubt it'll stay, but anywhere below 55kg seems good.
Apparently the bit of weight lost might be due to me falling sick early this week. I'm now mostly recovered, but I hope I won't eat too much during CNY.

Okay, I've resolved to fold paper roses for all the girls in my class, and junior class. Since I finally found some wire to make stalks with, this might take me 3 hours in all.

Meanwhile, I havent' been doing any schoolwork. I guess it's a festive season, but I end up choosing to pon lessons too. I'll have to stop this pattern of self-destruction sometime, but not now. Perhaps after Valentine's?

WEA

2008-01-15T20:40:00.000+08:00

Apologetics.. Tis battle on 4 fronts! Studying truth against the superstitious, the deviant, the godless, and the radicals! I wish it were easier to see that I'm not alone, in spirit and in flesh.

The weather has always fascinated me. It's changes quickly and is oft unpredictable. I've just begun my advanced level education on the weather, and there's this really funny clip I do have to post up. The video is below; turn up your volume a bit. Uh, and just before 04:00 it switches to a less funny interview, so you can skip that.
On a related note, I do have links to websites that give maps and data on the local weather. It's almost real time. If anyone (including you) wants to know the weather for a particular area in Singapore, sms or call me. If I'm at home I can help to give a forecast.

Just last night and up to today afternoon I experienced a stinging on-and-off headache somewhere above my right ear. It seems my third molars are pushing their way again, though at this time I cannot say which ones will erupt. As of now the gums far back on the right feel a bit tender. I can vaguely make out some shapes of teeth underneath, but they may remain there for quite a while. I recall that almost a year ago my first third molar, or wisdom tooth, erupted. It did come with fever and pain, so I'm prepared for those to happen again.

The Fantasy

2008-01-13T16:20:00.000+08:00

Much has been set into motion. Let us see how they play out.

Apparently I have messed up my character in Adventure Quest a little. Still, I have decided to treat it as a good reason to somewhat further give up gaming. I have but recently realised that games are virtually nothing compared to reality, as life functions like a game but outclasses it in many ways.
Indeed I have spent a lot of time and effort on gaming, affecting my life. I have noticed that I can speak confidently with strangers online, but less otherwise. Also, years back I did awake myself at unusual hours of the early morning simply to play when there is less competition or when my parents would be asleep. Many times I have admitted that I do not have fun gaming. Tasks are so continuous and boring - my keystrokes become automatic. Why I continued playing was because I sought status. I suppose that even then I didn't have sense enough to be efficient. Yet gaming is relaxation in terms of the mindlessness, but it bears it's own consequences. Fortunately I have lost little money on it, but the time cannot be returned.

Anyhow, yesterday I've recieved a summons to go for a health check-up. That has something to do with Enlistment for NS, though I don't know whether it is to determine if I am unfit or whether I have defects (flatfoot). Regardless, I shall spend the next few weeks working on strength. That is, once I recover from the aches of Friday's PE. XD

foresight

2008-01-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

I am wont to doubt my decisions, then repeat my thought processes leading up to the same.. when will my mind be steady?

With a bit of effort, I've beaten my best time for Medium level sudoku. It's also faster than my record for Hard, which was somehow faster than Medium. My new score is 4 minutes and 0 seconds. It's in the top 7%. Of course it's usually better to compare average scores, perhaps a set of 5 against another. But I guess I don't quite have that motivation to whack 5 or 10 at one go. Not when it gets to Hard, anyway.

School has pretty much restarted. CCA has become busy again, perhaps more than last year due to recruitment and taking up the role of senior. Anyway the air-con in LT5 is not working, and everytime I go in I feel like some of my brain cells died in the stuffiness XD

There's an angel & mortal game between the junior and senior classes. Apparently it took a lot of encouragement to get things started. Turns out the only message sent so far is mine, but up to a dozen of my classmates wrote theirs today (and I wrote out my second!). My letter style is somewhat ranting.. Much like these posts, I suppose. But I was using some old English, I'd find it funner that way.

the Cold

2008-01-04T17:05:00.000+08:00

I am uncertain.. Which is the path I shall tread? Yet in the cold winds I am not to look at where my feet stand, but keep my eyes on Jesus.

Now I know that I am to take my own advice, such as that which I counsel with. Oh that it were easy to do! I'm not going to give any examples here, but to say the least I cannot bind myself to the past, but seek acceleration towards my objectives.

School has started, and there have been no academic work whatsoever for me to do. So much for the storm I was preparing for, now I must keep watch and stay alert, and that's not easy either. I hope lessons will resume soon in full swing. My purpose this year is to spend most of my afternoons in school, where it would be easier to concentrate. I'll want to master my concepts first, so I can then help others.
Yesterday was a CCA Recruitment day (okay so to the J1's it was CCA walkaround/walkabout). As most of the members were away at tests or other CCA's, I was the only person at the Robotics Club booth nigh all the time. One-man-show.. XD Well, at least I had got 15 people to write down their contacts. The CCA might have collapsed without me!

Tomorrow is the 13th anniversary of KS. I still remember the committee arguing to sort out the age of KS. It's rather confusing, if you consider the distinction between years in running, age, and anniversary. On the other hand it's funny that this is supposed to be a simple matter!

Shadow of Intent

2008-01-01T02:30:00.000+08:00

This year shall I reign in all the matters which ought to have been your duties, save in the carnal. This is but one of many steps I must take so that I may accelerate.

Oft have I heard of this thing called 'fault'. I believe that if people were less inclined to lay blame, and instead seek to find a solution, we might further grow in charity. Passing fault around doesn't help, rather it causes people to see a problem larger than it really is. As for creating blame, this is a truly pointless act that has led many to hurt. There is the issue where humans are not aware of their words, and thus anger finds it root. I must learn to do the difficult, as not to judge.

Now these are the priorities that are to guide my life in the future. Whether I can hold to them remains to be seen, although I know that except God help me, I shall fail. Above all, I shall dedicate my life, mortal and immortal, unto Christ alone. The next objective shall be to find love and joy, not as distinct entities, but together. Following which is the concept of God's divine will, that I may tread the paths He chose on this earth. Thereafter I must pursue the various strengths I need. As one may so notice, these goals do overlap. Yet this is not to be mocked, for to have several different goals may result in confusion and indecision. Also I have begun to see the greater implications of intangible qualities.

I expect the later half of the year to be especially rife with academic challenges. But I do not intend to merely await it's onset, rather I will attempt to seek encounter ahead of time. May not this come to nought.

Few things in life do I fear, but the few have become more prominent in the past year. Despite once seeing myself as nigh fearless, I now seek courage. Indeed, my aspirations may either raise me up, or cast me down. Yet I will press on, so that I may move forward with determination, regardless of the outcomes. I must hold true to my motives.

Choices

2007-12-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

My will is bound, yet amongst my options I cannot yet discern that which truly pleasing unto God, nor have I clarified my motive. And then, I have not yet fully mastered both pride and envy. I must reprioritise.

A long lead-in sentence, I suppose. This may also be a rather lengthy post. I have just returned from a long time of inactivity (online anyways). I think I shall have to type things out chronologically, starting from where I left off..

Penang. Good food, but I would have none of it's street fare. I stuffed myself at buffet breakfasts at the hotels (and have hit 55kg XD). Then I would oft skip lunch, but it doesn't counter the amounts I took in. I did go to the gym twice, though, without anyone's knowledge. Training went well, but I didn't burn fat. The night market was more interesting that that of Egypt's, though the stuff sold in both countries tended to have the 'made in China' mark. I have bought some stuffs back. Perhaps I could have a gift for you, if you ask. (though 'no' is still an answer)

My brothers fell sick during the trip. Partly digested food substances flowed from both ends of their alimentary canal. And there was fever too. I caught a bit of the germs, but I only got a mild fever. Oh, and my father caught it too, after he came back, got it quite bad too.

Then KSS Retreat. I cycled to the site, as planned. However I was certainly in a weakened state, suffering from both being a bit ill and lack of sleep. The sleep part is a reason why I did not want to go overseas. The messages were good, and quite a refresher. Fellowship was good too, oh, and the fellowhip of the cube, hehx. I know I did not function at optimum, but that was expected with the illness still afflicting me. I also had the opportunity to sort out some of my doubts (but not all solved yet XD), both by consultation and reading the Bible. I thank God for the Retreat, it has truly benefitted me, and I'm sure most others would say the same.

I managed to solve the Rubik's cube while I was in Penang. Initially I had to use a corners first method as I was really limited, but then I went to research for a 3-corner algorithm, which was suprisingly simple. So now my speed would be better, and I shall buy a real (or at least better) cube soon. I brought my one dollar cube to the Retreat, and Cheryl brought her real one. Jere had become Cheryl's protege, and he actually managed to learn to solve using a common method (however I still think it's better if one solves it by themselves first before learning further). More people did become interested, but well, there were only 2 cubes, so the fellowship of the cube couldn't really be well defined.

Apparently my chosen manner of solution differs quite a lot from the common method. This is with regard to the last layer. The common method is to orientate the edges, position the edges, position the corners, orientate the corners. The one I use is to orientate the edges, position the corners, orientate the corners, position the edges.

travels

2007-12-19T22:35:00.000+08:00

When may I exercise my choice? It seems I may have to force it in time to come..

Tomorrow I shall be leaving for Penang. I did not wish to go, but I guess I'll just have to make good of the situation and buy back some gifts. I'll be going up by car, and returning by plane, as I've to rush to the KSS Retreat. I'll cycle there from the house, should take like 20 minutes.

Previously on Sunday, I managed to cycle to the NSRCC site and back already. It was tough going with tyres on low pressure. I've fixed that, so it'd be easier now. When I return, I should be able to put my stuffs on 2 bags. I'll attach one of these onto the bike, and the other on my back. I also have a wet weather plan, using garbage bags. Perhaps others can use my bike during freetime, heh.

Pray for my safety! (even though I'm bringing household 'weapons' everywhere)

Battle Stations

2007-12-15T00:25:00.000+08:00

I honestly don't know what I'm doing this late/early.

I've been looking through a lot of photos from the last KS Camp, courtesy of Jere. Other than pictures of other people whom I will not address now (except this: for brothers I've got a clown and a barbarian XD), I've noticed stuffs about many pictures with me inside. I'm often in a combat situation or stance, even in candid photos. And, I keep seeing my smile, with too much upper front teeth. lolx

Today, well, I mean.. Yesterday, I went to cut my hair. This time it was really long, some strands could enter my ear. Then my mother took me to get new glasses made. (which is a bit confusing, since virtually all glasses have no glass in them now) Some of you may recall me asking you what colour the frame should be, well, I picked colourless today. I guess that settles my indecision. It's plastic, of course, I'm developing a distaste for metal.

I've also increased the height of my bike, I'll try to test it out later after I wake up. In theory, I should be able to cycle to the KSS Retreat campsite at NSRCC, with bags behind.

Sleep is taking hold of me. Good; I shall seek rest now. Enjoy the music!

Haste

2007-12-13T19:10:00.000+08:00

Time cannot be comprehended, as all of us experience it differently.

This morning I cycled towards the east, along East Coast Park. I managed to reach past the OBS site, so logically I can bike to the KSS retreat site. However my speed was appalling. I'm not so sure whether it's because I'm on wrong gears, but I know I'm going to need lots of practice. I should also increase the height of my seat slightly to improve efficiency.

Today I've hit upon a couple of websites that contain a wealth of mp3 and midi files. I've downloaded quite a number I know, and most of them sound 'normal'. Though there are also some weird tracks in the lists, like the one with dropkick..
http://www.good-music.org/good-music/moores-chapel/midi-hymns/hymns.html
http://www.good-music.org/good-music/moores-chapel/praise-team/praise-mp3-music.html

Okay, I smell that curry salmon. Fish eyes for dinner!

to fall

2007-12-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

"I stand upon some dreadful brink, and it is utterly dark in the abyss before my feet, but whether there is any light behind me I cannot tell. For I cannot turn yet. I wait for some stroke of doom."

PathFinder is over. I only took part in the first day as my friend was unavailable on the second. I see the irony that from where some teams left off, Man hasn't quite fallen yet, but has just been created, despite being the theme 'The Fall of Man'. This is taken from the fact that the cards we picked up have verses that only reach the end of chapter 1 of Genesis.
Travelling wasn't quite good. I'm so unfamiliar with public transport, and we went the wrong way at least twice. Dinner was terrible, unhealthy crispy chicken from KFC (I ate a good deal XD). I slept very late. The first time I laid down at 11+, I went to rest, without expecting sleep. My mind was screening through loads of thoughts and possibilities, along with ideals. Then I whistled a number of songs from the hymn-book and KS songbook while some friends talked, and slept later. I woke up slightly earlier than most people, as usual, and then left for home as I didn't have to compete anymore.

I have pondered over much recently, and made several conclusions. Yet questions remain, and the future is hid from me. One thing is certain, I should not be so bound by the ideas of cause and effect.

The Penang trip will be soon. I really don't like to go overseas. And, it'll also make me late for the KSS Retreat. Then my parents are also talking of a trip to Australia next Chinese New Year. I'm against myself going, of course, but the tension is building.

All the Worst

2007-12-08T22:30:00.000+08:00

Why was 'all the best' said? I wonder. I am the best, but then only without humility. For in truth, I am the worst.

Right, now initially I had not decided to post or not, but then I broke record in Sudoku again (by a long shot again too), so I was compelled to post. The new record is 4 minutes and 22 seconds, top 4%, and actually beats my medium difficulty score!

I haven't thought of much to type concerning the camp, or I forgot it. Anyways today KS went to the Singapore Christian Home for the Aged. It was fun singing to them, especially near the end where we gathered with one aunty and sang english songs. To the group we did some carols, in mandarin. I can't say I understood nor pronounced fluently, but it went fine. Captain's ball later on was good, but I tired out. I'm still sleepy, and as of now I don't have much clue why I'm procrastinating shower & sleep.

Okay, now I find that the last sentence up there was ranting.. Regardless, I will be gone for this PathFinder activity from Monday to Tuesday, so I'll be offline again. Somehow I'm very used to being online. It's like saying I'm awake. lolx

FAITH

2007-12-07T17:55:00.000+08:00

Caught betwixt two, maybe three, four or five.

So yes, I'm back from camp. It went great, and I got to lead a group. The theme was about faith, and I did learn several lessons. We also had to memorise an entire chapter of 40 verses, although nobody made it.
XD This post may not be very fluent.The lack of sleep is still affecting me, but I'm determined not to nap now. I admit I had a bit more sleep than some people, seeing as I didn't stay up nor tossed around, but I usually got up half an hour before most people.
Overall, I found it very fun, despite some measure of scandalising here and there. I was attacked by mosquitoes, a completely unprecedented occurence. Usually I'm resistant, but I guess shorts without repellent is just an invitation. And these mosquitoes are the wilder sort. There was also that angel-mortal thing. I was only able to take part from the second day as both my angel and mortal turned up then. I'm still finding it rather ironic that my angel slammed me over during a game. I hurt my knee on the rough ground, but it should be fine soon.
Apparently I tried to eat less during the camp, but I suppose I will have to wait a while to see if I did lose weight, as I'm quite dehydrated and my diet is not yet stable.

December is still going to be busy for me. Tomorrow afternoon has a visit to the old folk's home, after some 'PathFinder' briefing in the morning. The PathFinder will be early next week, and it's another stayover. I hope I can get enough rest. XD

I might update this post, if I recall something worth typing.

In the End

2007-12-01T21:00:00.000+08:00

She says she's stronger than I. This would.. show that the me she knows is that of two years ago.

Anyway, December has begun. Soon, I know, I will have to make decisions on how I am to live. It is not about which is right and good in the sight of God, for that is simple, but whether I will take up courage and choose His will. It isn't as easy as it used to seem. Regardless, much of what I've done, spending time and effort, would come to nought; I must make my December worthwhile.

Oh, about the first sentence up there, I guess I will just take that as a cause to push my physical limits. So here is an aim, to have my chest stand out further than my belly, by the end of this year. Whether that is to be accomplished, that will be known in time.

Tire

2007-11-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

The worst procrastination has to do with indecision.

Grr..! I've almost beat my previous record of Hard Sudoku, missed by a second! And that was partly due to a bit of distraction from Nut. Anyways, I'm sure there'll be more chances next time.

I've felt rather lethargic lately. And there are a few tasks I must complete within this holiday. I've sorta given up on the 550 words, it's not worth the time. Not when compared to gaming anyway. But next year, I will attempt to work up a high measure of discipline. Pray that God will grant me that ability. I can't get anything started otherwise.

By the way, that track is there because I find it nice. Especially the exhalations.

Honour

2007-11-26T13:30:00.000+08:00

It figures that my personality changes in the hols

I've decided to quit the SSEF thingy. It would be plain dishonourable, much more than leaving now, to continue. I won't be able to work on the task during December, and having contributed next to nothing in this month I do not wish to take credit for anything successful. Regarding which, I doubt we would meet success anyway, and failure is not acceptable in this case.
Also, no matter what the award could have been, I know I will regret how we carried out choosing the topic. This would have led to learning new things, not because I felt like I wanted to learn, but because I wanted the award. That wrong motive is dishonour.

Today I've taken some personality tests online. The results don't seem to be what I used to consider myself. My best reason is that in the holidays, I seriously procrastinate and game too much. This causes a change in personality. Or perhaps I've fallen into a bout of slight depression again, partially due to a lack of work. Thus my personality should change when school starts again, and perhaps to a new sort, if I can develop a motor to push for the A's.

Biking

2007-11-21T21:30:00.000+08:00

This will take a while..

I finally tried out my new bike today. Cycled to school and back. My control of the bike was quite fine, seeing as the last time I cycled was years back. However I found out that my legs' overall stamina were.. dismal at best. I guess I'll have to train them back up; my leg muscles are thick but I still have absolutely no idea what they do.
Oh, and anyone knows how those adjustable things on the handles work? Gears or something?

Preparation for the Singapore Science & Engineering Fair (SSEF) isn't going quite well for the team. I've identified 3 major sources of concern. One, time is catching up with us, I doubt we can make good at this rate. Two, we still lack a supervising supervisor who specialises in our obscure topic. Three, the mathematics involved is simply too complicated for us to master at this level of education.
Personally, I think our leader is very ambitious; the project topic was selected based on it's potential to win an award, not based on passion for an idea. And I feel that's sort of a wrong motive. I've set myself a deadline, I will pull out if necessary. This is also because my December is rather packed, and I can't do much good then. Nonetheless, for now I will still try to learn some difficult equations.

I've got a new handphone. Again, I didn't exactly want it. Initially I requested for a new one because I thought that some models had a sound jack similar to the computer's, until I found out that wasn't the case. So a few months passed, and I was just passed this one. Now I suppose I'll have to learn how to use this then.

weakened

2007-11-13T19:55:00.000+08:00

I need ninja shoes..

Soccer with the ol' class 4H'06 went rather good. That is, I played okay considering I was sick, and despite blocking a ball with the groin. It did hurt.. but my pain tolerance kept me up. My toes have also taken a beating, some nails have started to rip and the shoe cut off skin from the top of a toe again. I should get better socks.. Or make some tabi. Sure beats running around on hot concrete - my heat tolerance isn't good, and I don't have 'Thick Fat' like Monk (or Nut, as another example) to reduce heat and cold effects by 50%.

My illness seemed to have made feel very tired in the morning. However, after a shower and the gameplay I feel better. Not sure if it'll last, but my nose isn't clogged now.

Disrepair

2007-11-12T18:10:00.000+08:00

Based on the word REpair, shouldn't the title be DISpair instead? Though that'll sound too much like DESpair.. Ah well..

Okay, so I fell sick. And it don't feel very good. I mean, my nose is bad.. stuck so I can't sleep. Yesterday night I breathed through my mouth to sleep, and hence got a dry throat. My voice nearly became croaky like my youngest brother's. (but I have good enough voice control not to let that happen.. I don't loose my voice because I practise making noise ^^) Added to that, my shoulder-neck muscles are aching. I was working out yesterday and I guess I didn't exactly know how to stretch them. lolz

On the brighter side, I've levelled up in 2 games this morning. My new character in Maple Story finally got past level 30, and that's somewhat fast for a warrior. My character in BattleOn hit the 95 mark, and I've managed to hit the one million mark in gold again. Hope I don't spend it so soon.

Answers to GP '550 words you should know' will (hopefully) be up in the class blog by the end of this week. I'll add in '26 words you don't need to know' by alphabet. If I've enough time the words I choose as a whole will have a meaning behind them.

Frenzied

2007-11-09T11:15:00.000+08:00

Carnivore.

Yea, I'm sorta pissed. My parents decided to go to some vegetarian and fungarian restaurant yesterday to celebrate my grandfather's birthday. It was supposed to be for his health, though he'd prefer some meat in his meal. But for me, I totally sat it out. I snacked on some complementary peanuts at the start, then went on hunger strike. They should know better than to place me in such a place! Anyways I ate some stuffs at the RDC earlier on, so I didn't feel hunger pangs. Still, when I reached home I took a chicken egg and ate it raw. It's actually quite nice, but most people think it pure disgusting.

Speaking of which, my weight struck 54kg a while ago. And my aim is 2kg lesser. I'd put the blame on my fast-food day on Wednesday. I ate like 3 burgers in total, in addition to other stuff that came along. Only today has the product begun to be passed out.. XD

Today is Friday, and I'm relatively free. Somehow I don't feel inclined to do work. I guess I'm just stressed by worries. Too many untied ends are lying around, and I'm confused as to prioritize them. Maybe I'll come up with a list soon.

Stingray

2007-11-02T18:15:00.000+08:00

Headache.. XD

The stingray at school is very good! And I just tried it for the first time during my entire time in VJC. That means I spent almost one year in VJC w/o eating such good stingray. XD Previously I never bothered, because I don't usually order rice. But somehow yesterday after handing in the last part of PW (good riddance to it) I figured I'd try filling myself with a meal. So yea, it's spicy, but past that, it's friggin' good food.

Okay, enough ranting. Seems like every post these days has sudoku mentioned in some way or the other. I broke record again, this time by a long shot. My new record for Sudoku Hard is 5 minutes and 54 seconds. That's in the top 13%, breaks the mode, and don't tell me it was easy.

The holidays are supposed to have begun, but I have a bad feeling I won't be quite free. And a headache has been striking me. I can't pinpoint a reason, and that makes it more annoying.

O.P.

2007-10-30T20:20:00.000+08:00

Dissent. Thank God this will be all over soon.

Yes, my oral presentation will be tomorrow. For now, I've yet to practice my stuffs once more. I should do so, even though I find working spontaneous best. I don't even have a script, but I use cue cards. Needless to say, my text changes every time I say it. Can't tell if it's for the best, but often my best speaking moments are when I don't follow the order of what I planned, but instead the flow of words. Gestulation is also natural to me, as well as a loud voice. I hope I don't somehow blunder, which cannot be averted in advance.

Anyway, today I tried my first Samurai Sudoku. Try doing 5 sudoku's at one go. It took me quite long, probably because the numbers were smaller due to the larger diagram. However I doubt anyone reading this blog can solve one, even an easy one. Tag if you did so. It's a test of patience, logic comes second. Go to http://www.samurai-sudoku.com/.

DAZED

2007-10-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

Don't we all just love records?

Another new record for Hard Sudoku! 7 minutes and 4 seconds, top 22%. I didn't expect it to come out so well, since I'm still partially dazed from playing so much Maple Story. Ah, perhaps my mind is clearer this way. (And yes, I managed to pick up mapling again XD)

My online request to offer H3 Geography for rejected, but somehow the teacher contacted me to ask me to attend the briefing. I'm more than a bit confused, especially since I was already considering H3 Physics (though I don't feel inclined to learn new syllabus anymore). I'll attend tomorrow's briefing, but I don't know if I should really take up this challenge, as I couldn't do well for promos.

Shout to the Lord

2007-10-21T16:55:00.000+08:00

my memories come with their tunes

Okay, before I forget, I'd better update my records. I just scored 7 minutes 17 seconds for Hard Sudoku! That's in the top 24%, and sorta hits the mode. It's hard to tell because it's so sharp there. Apparently I've been regularly hitting 8 minutes plus, but a lot of people do 7's.

This tune's chorus has been stuck in my head every since I recall myself humming, and later whistling. I finally found it's origin when I heard the song when Joanna sent me by car to the MRT station yesterday. So I searched it out, and here it is. I'll hand out the lyrics too! They're quite nice..

Shout to the Lord: all the earth let us sing
Power and majesty praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

My Jesus, my Savior
Lord, there is none like You
All of my days, I want to praise
The wonders of Your mighty love

My comfort, my shelter
Tower of refuge and strength
Let every breath, all that I am
Never cease to worship You

[repeat above]

Shout to the Lord: all the earth let us sing
Power and majesty praise to the King
Mountains bow down and the seas will roar
At the sound of Your name

I sing for joy at the work of Your hands
Forever I'll love You, forever I'll stand
Nothing compares to the promise I have in You

Present!

2007-10-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

And I thought my presentation was bad..

Hehx, posting from WARAKU, I'm using some wireless connection. Might disconnect anytime, but it's cool while it lasts.

Today I did my mock oral presentation. It went quite well, I can safely say my group did the best amongst the class. (though it's scary to think about RJC's standard at presenting) I managed not to fidget, and spoke clearly enough. However from the video I recorded I saw that I swayed excessively. I'll have to improve on that.

EDIT: wow! this post at 19:10 is also dated as on 19/10!

vacancy

2007-10-16T20:15:00.000+08:00

Can this vacancy actually be felt?

Just had a sparing with my brother. The idiot, wouldn't even leave me alone when I'm not bothering him. Then my mother came and scolded both of us. Since I was pissed already enough by my brother, I became more annoyed by the falsehoods coming out of her mouth. I mean, she's been stressed lately, but she doesn't care much about my various difficulties. So I shouted, traded remarks and a couple of hits, and ended with a standoff. So much for the ideas of peace at home.

Got back my geography results this morning. I've failed by one mark. XD Chances are that I can't get that H3. Now that I think of it, I'm still wondering why exactly I wanted H3 in geography. Ah well, I shall still try to appeal for it, and try to score very high for the re-assessment.

Project Work is consuming my life. And I do mean it. I'm spending so much time and effort on this gunk, when I doubt it'll help me in any way. At least it'll be over soon, at the end of this month. After which is more work, SSEF and whatnot. I hope I can focus well.

My family wants to go to Penang this year during Christmas. I hate this type of shit. Travelling.. urgh. I do have better things to do, but they say spend Christmas with the grandparents. My attempts at forfeiting the trip haven't worked. XD Looks like I'll end up filled with negativity during the 'holiday'. sianz.. such a poor outlook, eh?

Condition

2007-10-10T21:20:00.000+08:00

Well it's time for a post, innit? Am I supposed to type something abstract here?

Yea, all my results are coming back in. Most of them are in. Geography will be tomorrow (hopefully), then it's all known.
Let's start with the best. I scored an 81 for math. That's the second-third (tie) highest in the class, and I showed the 3rd greatest improvement. (the top was 94 an' I wanna beat that! lolz) Anyway this paper should be my document for not doing Mr. DC's tutorials. He's a bit confused and annoyed that I refuse to prepare for tutorials, but now I hope he'd ask less.
Chemistry was dismal. I've got a 53.5, though I did next to no revision. However I had hoped to score a bit higher.. ah well, I suppose that why I want to drop it to H1.
I made a 63% for physics. My classmates were surprised, when they compared answers, that I could answer the tough questions but didn't do as well for the simpler ones. I guess that's due to me revising the concepts but not practising the formulae. hehx
GP is unfortunately 52, with a bare pass of 26 for each section. I messed up my essay by becoming ambiguous again, and scored a sheer zero for the vocab questions. However my application question passed (only because of my analysis, wrote the marker), and my summary got 5/8. I hope to somehow write more to practise.. I know! Next year I shall hand in 2 essays for every set of questions I'm presented with!

Physically I'm incapable of very strenous motions with my feet right now. I've got 2 toes Wounded In Action. One is a delayed effect, the rip was suffered during combat while I was kicking on one foot. The other is due to some problem with my shoe. I had just cut my toenail, but it got hooked and jammed into some part of the shoe several times. So during floorball with the class on Tuesday it whammed too hard and bled a bit. And it's on the other foot. So I guess it'll take me a week or so to recover. For now, both feet are not at optimal status. XD

Then during chemistry lesson, the teacher wanted to show an experiment to the class. She asked for a ten dollar and two dollar bill. I provided an old $2 note. She attempted to make a flame on the paper w/o burning the note. She claimed she would test the $2 note first because she don't like me. She failed and I lost the 2 bucks! Well, more because an old note is valued more nowadays. XD

Oh, and try saying this several times quickly. SPLIT A WARPED PLANK! A slight tongue twister I devised.. while staring at a warped plank and thinking of it spliting.

French Castle

2007-10-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

Qu'est-ce que c'est?

Nope, the question is not 'what is your quest' (nor the answer 'I seek the holy Grail'). Find out the meaning yourself. For now, I think it's been far too long without a video. So, here you go! And it's a funny one too. As norm, wait for it to load substantially before playing.

Open House?

2007-10-04T12:05:00.000+08:00

We're all out of time! This is how we learn how it all unwinds!

Okay, I shouldn't be blogging. Really! I've spent so much time gaming the last few days that I actually chalked up backlog. And trying to breed powerful pokemon is driving me crazy.

VJC Open House is on theis Saturday! If you're taking 0's this year, or if you're just interested in getting freebies, do come down between 10am and 3pm!
Yea, I've stuff to prepare, flyers an' all. I need to do them by today. XD

Two days ago, I ate KFC for dinner. Went by myself to gorge on less healthy food. I'm not gonna do that for a long time. Anyways, I consumed a two-person meal while there. Loads of chicken! I hope I'm not constipated.

Tag-Boards!

2007-09-29T15:45:00.000+08:00

Livin' in pseudo-freedom

My examinations are finally over, I didn't put in as much effort as I would have wanted to, but I guess I won't do very badly. And then I'm free for most of next week, as school starts only on Friday. Hehx, people needing help with topics can try to snag me.
There isn't much time left for the tasks I need to complete before the year ends. But for now, I am trying to play and relax as much as possible. Not very successful in that, since I haven't got hold of the GameBoy Advance from my parents yet.

Anyway, here's the address requested for: http://www.geocities.com/datksmeg/TagBoards.html. I wrote this site when I thought it would be so much more convenient to check replies from one page than to visit all the blogs one at a time (especially with all the laggy music and image loading). However I'll only place the tagboards of people with similar backgrounds together, otherwise it'll be very confusing. I'd say making it was html practice, but I'll not make another anytime soon.

HALO?

2007-09-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

FOCUS ENERGY! It's a critical time!

New record for Sudoku Hard! My fastest timing is now 7 minutes and 37 seconds! This score is in the top 28%, but somehow is still slightly behind the mode score. XD

I'm on the verge of confronting my promotional exams (that I need to take in order to promote to J2). And I've been very very distracted. I've started researching into pokemon again, trying to battle better. Also, today is the release date of Halo 3, and apparently I went to read up storyline info whilst looking for the newest plot additions, which I didn't find, but spent a lot of time.
Still, I hope to get the exams over and done with, and then do a great deal of stuff; some which I look forward to, and others not. Like gaming, working on SSEF, finish Project Work, more gaming, preparing for camps in December, do CCA things, even more gaming, exercise, among others. Oh, and importantly, read the Bible!

SPAr

2007-09-19T14:50:00.000+08:00

Blades Forth! Yet, need exam scripts be sharp?

So today was my Chemistry Science Practical Assessment (SPA), Skill A. And I inconveniently forgot to bring my calculator! So I decided to opt for a paper and my brains instead. I finished all the writing portions for the paper, but the calculations were slow and half done. All in, I guess it's the best I could do, especially since many numbers weren't easy to multiply and divide (74, 119.5, etc.). Anyway the marks from practical won't matter anymore, once I drop Chemistry to H1 after the Promotional Examinations.

sianz.. I've to start mugging soon. All the exams will be upon me in one week. And that's not including Physics SPA tomorrow, and General Paper on Friday. This is exam heats liao XD

weary

2007-09-16T18:20:00.000+08:00

Typing is easier with shorter fingernails!

I just broke my medium difficulty SUDOKU record time by TWO SECONDS with 4 minutes and 45 seconds! (top 13%) Probably the puzzle was easier than the others. The puzzle I did just before that was rather difficult, it took me more than 17 minutes. XD

I'm readying up for the exams. Besides the revision that will come in the weeks to come, I've cut my nails shorter. It's difficult typing with very long nails, and even harder to write. (I'm NOT SAYING my nails are very long, they're just LONG, but would have grown to very long in 10 days)
Other than that, I've started switching to a healthier diet - less oil, meat, sugar, salt, etc.. I'll also make sleep an even greater priority. I believe that my exam performance is more dependant on my condition than what I revised. Of course, this is assuming I've revised sufficiently. And above all, I must trust God.

I've just realised a few days ago that if I'm dropping my chem to H1, I don't need to take SPA (practical) for it anymore! So, I guess I won't bother preparing for the one tomorrow.

tremors..

2007-09-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

I seek for signs of things to come, but the future shall ever be unpredictable by man.

Just a while ago, a tremor from a massive earthquake in Indonesia was felt by me. It lasted 4 minutes, and was rather strong.. Though not strong enough for me to sway, like the previous one. The foreign students in the hostel visible from my house evacuated, though I deem it pointless, since structures in Singapore are required to be able to withstand stress, primarily by wind and secondary by ground vibrations. Still, the foreign students cannot be faulted on their fear, for in their homelands, an earthquake disaster is a greater reality.

For once in a long time, I actually mugged today in school. I stayed back in school because the day ended unusually early without CCA, so I started some work and ended up chionging for a few hours. I did math, and that so happens to be one of my weaker topics now, due to total lack of experience. I actually had to rework my theory multiple times.

Project work is indeed becoming a pressing obligation, though I would not have begun had I a choice. Regardless, I must find my niche skill, though now it appears to lie in academics.

Work=Pt

2007-09-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

lethargy.. I must get to work

Though I typed the equation Work=Power*Time, PT also refers to physical training. XD I have tried to spend a bit more time exercising during the holidays, but I guess it's not enough to call an achievement.

Today I lazed around for the morning, and managed to do half my Project Work EoM during the afternoon. Then I noticed the dark and huge clouds towards the northwest and kept watching them. When I realised it wasn't going to rain in southeast Singapore, I decided to jog to school to water some plants in the garden. During my time there I found that someone had chucked a large chunk of concrete into the compost bin. Very nasty situation; as I tried to take the heavy >10kg thing out of the bin, the rotation made things more difficult. Eventually I managed to take it out, of course, but I have a few small cuts and bruises from the rough chunk.

The time I have with the rest of my family away overseas will be over soon. And I'm not sure how well I've used it effectively, as while I did do some work which would be much more difficult to do with them around, I displayed far too much lethargy. I only hope I can regain and sharply increase my studying inertia within the next week, especially since I haven't even started preparing for my final exams.

I have AnswerTips enabled the blog so that you can just double click on any difficult words (like inertia?) to find it's meaning. Try it! And I can now use as much cheem language as I can possibly think of! Next time, then.

owned

2007-09-06T18:15:00.000+08:00

I must set everything right, fast!

I woke up today at 6am. Went to the hostel at VS to meet the foreign scholars from Robotics Club before going to the Science Centre. They turned up late and groggy. Apparently they tend to sleep very late, something I never approve of.
Early on as we prepared for the competition I had warned about sticking to the rules, about the size of the robot and the limit to parts we can used. Nobody took it seriously. I let it go, since I wasn't particularly interested in it. Turns out I was right. The judges were strict about the rules, and the robots we were to use would be disqualified. Team 1 were then trying to get a new design sorted out, but Team 2 gave up. That's not really to be unexpected, most of the IP students weren't fully interested in their tasks of programming and designing. I was in their team, but losing out is fine by me.. since I've never placed it high on my priorities. (but I still was right about following the rules!)

Afterwards I went to the giftshop to buy something curious, way in advance for an idea. Anyways, I then left to cut my hair, it's short now.. I can use less shampoo. (I think I'm sounding random already.) And I've to claim like $50 from the school, since I ended up paying so many taxi bills. Hehx, the schools owes me. XD
Sianz.. I'll have to pack A LOT of work into tomorrow.

I shall change the music again this weekend. I guess everyone's much more active on their blogs during the hols.

Heart of Worship

2007-09-05T13:35:00.001+08:00

This song is otherwise known as 'When the Music Fades'. I learnt it in Primary school, and haven't forgotten it since.

The holidays have been not been very useful with respect to my work as of yet.. I must really put in effort to focus on what needs to be done.

However, much time was not spent fruitless. I have managed to clear up *a bit* of my room. Yesterday I also managed to tutor LiYan for 6 hours or so. Looking back I wonder how her concentration could have been that good.. Or maybe it's because of Annabel, who admits to be the distraction she probably was.
Competition tomorrow at the Science Centre again. That leaves me with less time. Project Work is rising up my list of priorities as time shortens. I've also yet to fulfil my goals of spending more time for God, and with God.

When the music fades
All is stripped away
And I simply come
Longing just to bring
Something that's of worth
That will bless your heart

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

King of endless worth
No one could express
How much you deserve
Though I'm weak and poor
All I have is yours
Every single breath

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

I'll bring You more than a song
For a song in itself
Is not what You have required
You search much deeper within
Through the way things appear
You're looking into my heart

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

I'm coming back to the heart of worship
And it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus
I'm sorry, Lord, for the thing I've made it
When it's all about You
It's all about You, Jesus

not seen

2007-09-02T19:25:00.000+08:00

Due to negative comments about the previous videos left on the tagboard (thankfully removed by my alter ego), I have decided to put up a more funny video. Whether you people can see the humour innit will be a different matter. Especially since it's British humour (and don't spell 'humour' like 'humor') which not all of us have experienced.

This video was made using clips from Halo, which makes it more funny than the original, but the narrator's voice is unchanged. Sound effects are part of the clips.

Patience..

2007-08-30T16:25:00.000+08:00

Much more shall come to pass, but much more needs to be done first

I've got a lot to post about, but I've procrastinated on that too. Right now I'm typing from the Science Centre, I found wireless access. How I'm at the Science Centre will be covered later.

On Monday I went to see Parliament. Apparently it was a tour, so I didn't really get to listen to the responses given by the Ministers to various questions. Still, at least I know more about the procedures, security, and other stuffs.

Since Wednesday I've been aching badly from the PE on Tuesday. I guess I wasn't fit at all as the previous PE lessons were only some form of dancing called 'Body Jam'. (and I can't dance XD) Still, one might say the PE session was grueling.

Right now I'm at the Science Centre for the presentation segment of a Robotics Competition. Somehow they had the theme as Climate Change, which hardly fits with robots.. I hope we can do well enough to make the next round, though I'm not very concerned with winning. Hehx, I can buy stuff from the gift shop, but it's 'a bit' expensive.
XD kanna scammed sia. I bought the plastic hose (the kind used to produce a sound at resonance when swung) and after a few uses it cracked. This made it unable to produce sound, but when i questioned about a refund or replacement, they said they were not liable for the damage. I mean, it's a tourist attraction and such poor quality stuff are sold?! There goes $4.90, but I decided not to buy any more from the shop.

To Find Myself

2007-08-26T21:50:00.000+08:00

I must regain my optimism! Get up and smile once more..

I've advanced to the Hard difficulty at the Sudoku website you can find at the links section. As of now, I broke the 10 minute barrier for the first time with 9 minutes 56 seconds. This score is within the top 47%, but doesn't quite make the mode.
Along the theme of games, yesterday I blasted and slashed at my brothers over the X-Box in Halo 2. I didn't do so well in large maps where reflexes and strategy comes into play, however in a small map with everyone carrying rocket launchers I won the game. I think it's because I'm good at noticing small movements/details on my screen and thus can spot targets to blast, despite poorer reflexes. This sharpness in detecting details carries over into reality too, I often spot people without having to bump into them, and note unique facts in an ordinary situation.

Besides all that, I'm not in a very good position in time now. If my JC life is to be a replica of my secondary school life, with time going twice as fast, I would now be in difficulties with regard to friends and work attitude. And indeed this seems so, but I must not allow negativity to take over. Not this time!

Hope in Light?

2007-08-25T14:05:00.000+08:00

Here are some videos, as promised. These were taken from the end credits of a particular series; I like the songs.

In the one below you can see the origin of 2 of my msn messenger display pictures. And I wonder if I could eventually perform some of the stunts too (backflip and somersault).

As for this one below, there are subtitles (yayz!). It's a bit blur, but try to see them, if you want to find out what the song means..

Hold Fast

2007-08-23T18:50:00.000+08:00

Time passes, and I shall pass away with it.. How long more can I hold on?

I've been a bit busy lately, and felt less of an inclination to post. I mean, I actually finished some of the tasks I've to do. The final major one involves some measure of research I've to collate by this weekend.

I managed to fast for at least 45 hours from tuesday. That was no eating, but I drank quite a lot. Didn't really get many hunger pangs, but I felt a lack of energy most of the time. I hope that cleansed some of the toxins in my body, as I overate on Sunday and Monday. However I think I might just have ate a lot back today afternoon. The food at the school canteen is hard to resist.. XD

The blog music will be removed this weekend, as I try to put up some videos. Oh, and I guess I really should cut my fingernails soon, typing is becoming more difficult.

Specks of Light

2007-08-18T21:55:00.000+08:00

The goals I seek are shifting, fading.. Time becomes shorter yet

Today I gave the exhortation for the KS meeting. I spoke on the effects of being justified, from Romans 5:1-5. I'm not sure how it sounded, but I certainly hope it wasn't too soft or fast. XD Thank God I managed to prepare it on short notice. I was requested to do the exhortation yesterday, but I didn't turn down because I knew the organising group was really short on time to ask this late.

I have exceeded the deadline for handing in a form that will allow me to continue offering 4H2 subjects. If I were to drop a subject to H1 difficulty, it would be chemistry. What's bothering me about the subject is that I'm more confused about some points than in other subjects, that the teacher isn't helping me excel, and that I probably will have no use for the subject in the future, since I'm not studying medicine. It will have use if I end up researching petrochemicals or water treatment, but I doubt I'll become a researcher either. But dropping from H2 will mean I'll not get to do some fun areas like drawing certain molecules anymore.
However, I am now more reassured in leaving those stuffs after consulting some friends (it is indeed sad I don't ask my parents, but I guess that's just my path). I can study what I find interesting in my free time, meanwhile I should focus on other subjects.

The class has been much into IQ puzzles lately. Which I do good in. So far, I've been able to solve every question tossed at me, and generated a couple. I'm not sure how long this fad can continue, though, as people who can't solve will get bored, and that's nigh all the class. I suppose this shows that I may be the brightest in the class, but this does not translate into grades, especially with laziness. Also, I need to relearn and organise many topics, which can only come by the practice that I have been procrastinating. My potential must shine, and hopefully, I can also learn to let it shine for God.

I wanna Heal

2007-08-14T20:30:00.000+08:00

The struggle manifests itself again. I must let go of fears.

School stress is building up, and somehow I feel like I can't take the pressure. That's uncommon.. but I guess it's only possible because I was sick for a while, and I've undergone too much procrastinating lately. I pray that I can stand up again to all that needs to be done.

In other matters, I gave out some flag erasers at school today. Perhaps I can start a trend and revitalise the eraser flipping game in JCs and secondary schools. lolx

Reverting skin tomorrow.

Together

2007-08-08T20:30:00.000+08:00

So there we have it! A temporary skin for National Day. How's it?

Today was some National Day celebrations, nothing really eventful. As I was walking out of school, some old friends from GEP noticed me (and I didn't quite recognise them) and asked if I would go to the reunion that was planned today. Having lots of free time, I went along with them.
It was indeed a bundle of mixed feelings to be back at my primary school (Saint Hilda's), see previous teachers after so many years, and meet cohort-mates whom I have not made contact for a long time. There was a somewhat awkward sensation there, as I dropped out of GEP after one year plus, while they established good friendships amongst themselves. No one held it against me, of course, but it makes me wonder what could have happened had I not left early. Still, I thank God for the chance to meet them all again, even though we have gone in seperate ways. 'Our paths will ever cross'.

After lunch at Century Square, a few of us left for Marine Parade to play pool. Initially I was uncertain if I should go, but since I was going that way, I joined anyway. Turned out I'm quite okay at pool, but my accuracy kept falling as the game wore on. Might be my stamina, or my hands becoming a bit sticky.
We became tired of playing after a few hours, and I left the small group to find Popular bookshop. I managed to find it soon, to buy flag erasers and a keychain laser pointer. Then I went back home.

The lyrics below are of the song 'Together', theme song of year 1999. It's one of my favourite songs, and I like its meanings. Still, what is my special dream?

Let us be together aspire to achieve
No matter what, no matter when, working hand in hand
Let us go the distance, reach for goals that shine
Creating our future, with everyone in mind

Together we make a difference, one voice, one destiny
We remain undivided, our hearts in harmony
Together we make a difference, our friends, our families
We will share a special dream
Together we feel the Singapore heartbeat

Let us find in our strides, new strength to go on by
Nothing is ever easy, we have to hold on and strive
Let us never be afraid, if we have to change our ways
Through the years, we'll always stay, one in every way

Together we make a difference, one voice, one destiny
We remain undivided, our hearts in harmony
Together we make a difference, our friends, our families
We will share a special dream
Together we feel the Singapore heartbeat

We will share a special dream
Together we feel the Singapore heartbeat
Singapore heartbeat

EDIT: Sudoku new record time is 4 minutes 47 seconds! (So maybe the puzzle was a bit easier.. but I got past the mode time!) And it says the score is in the top 13%.

crastinate

2007-08-05T20:10:00.000+08:00

I must advance, accelerate, if I am to fly!

The sickness I'm recovering from has been a very suitable excuse for procrastination. I should be able to do work well already, but I just can't get myself to do it. Conversely, it's difficult to stop playing computer games, despite many of them being repetitive and frustrating at times. I only hope I can catch up during the National Day holidays, and don't play so much instead.

Speaking of which, I wonder what I shall do on the blog for National Day? Check back when the holiday starts!

Lactic Acid

2007-07-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

How far can the physical limits be stretched?

This morning I took my NAPFA re-retest, this time including the 2.4km. I skipped the sit-ups because I didn't want to do stations on a hurting belly. I finally passed my shuttle-run. And that's like a first in years! Thank God! The first try, I got past with 10.9s, an E grade. But I retried, and got 10.7s, a D grade. I think it was my poor technique that sort of prevented me from passing, as I would go stability over speed.
I also made improvements in sit & reach and pull-ups. I managed to hit 4 pull-ups, claiming one more grade. And instead of needing one more 1cm to get a D in sit & reach, I now need 1cm more for a C. lolx
However I failed my 2.4km jog/run, missing the E grade by 19s or so. It might have been due to me already being tired out by the other 4 stations previously, but my lack of stamina is still bad enough for me to have to walk a lot. Standing broad jump is the other station I failed, but it has improved again. Within a week, I got another 7cm (191 in May, 198 last week, 205 today). Perhaps next week I can pass it (needs 210cm). Actually I'd try for a silver award, but I guess I first have to pass all.
Somewhere in between I must've overused a tendon. Just left of my left knee there's some measure of weakness whenever I straighten my leg. I hope I can recover by next week.

I have changed the track to an NDP song. What an awful lot of questions it's asking! But it's nice, yeah. I'll post more videos in late August.

Cool! I just found this government site on national education: http://www.nexus.gov.sg/

buzz?

2007-07-30T22:00:00.000+08:00

An' it never fully comes to me just how many _____ there are!

Today I turned murderous. A huge fly was buzzing around the classroom. No harm in that, I had fun watching it. Then after an hour or so, it flew at me, and got between my eye and spectacles. That's so freakin' annoying!
After bending over and expressing some mild statements at the fly, I got up and noticed the fly was on someone's file a couple of metres away. The girls there were backing away already. I took up my (large) pencilcase, 'YOU DIE!' was my war-cry, and I promptly smacked the fly. It was a cold room, so the fly had slow reflexes, or maybe it was just fat. So it got kild, and a spot of red blood went on a paper in the file. My classmates thought I had went crazed.. but I did it on vengeance. And I was made to throw away the fly's body.

I'm getting slammed with work again, I hope I can manage. Not only written, but also CCA, just when I didn't expect it. Plus I want to try my hand at plant grafting.

Recently I've obtained some new music. And I found out the people at my house don't like it. I never thought I'd ever had a problem with people complaining at 'secular music', but I guess that no longer holds. I think it's just a matter of perception and appreciation. It's just a different style of background music, and I do remove those with bad lyrics. Perhaps they're too used to me playing only jap music? I dunno, at least it's one thing my brothers can't copy.

Maybe I can go buy a pointer soon? And by the way, 'vol de mort' is French for 'flight of death'.

ERGO

2007-07-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

I project a lot of work soon

It felt weird when I had to call up Meridian JC for some answers to the Project Work my group is doing. It felt even more weird when I found out I was speaking to the principal Esther Lai. (at least it wasn't my ex-chem tutor, HoD of something with too much attitude) Anyway I got what I needed, though it wasn't unexpected, and not very useful either.
Seriously, project work as a subject is nothing but a waste of time. All that hypothetical gunk. J2s always feel like they suddenly have so much more time. That would be due to having PW over.

Math mentoring yesterday went fine. I cleared up as many concepts with myself as I did with others. Just hope the techniques stay with me.

zzzzZ..

Fighting Stress

2007-07-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Stress isn't letting up. Neither shall I.

Just a short post. That Project Work is coming in on heavy. I'm far back on my research and drafting, so I have to work well this week. Against all the procrastinating sentiments within me. Added to that stress is my work, I've begun working at tutorials again. I need to lead the intelligentsia frontier!

Anyway, today I went to buy the flag. It cost $10, which seems like a scam price to me because the flag and the pole should only be $4 together. I got the whole 2.5m thing back, thank God it wasn't hot weather today. In all I walked a lot more than I expected, partially due to getting slightly lost, but I decided to walk around that area a bit more too. I shall get the flag set up tomorrow.

Today I took my NAPFA retest. Not much improvement at all, I still failed my shuttle run and standing broad jump. However I gained a few more cm for the standing broad jump, and my belly didn't hurt as much as the last time though I managed the same number of sit-ups. Also got the same number of pull-ups as last time, perhaps I can lay the blame on my arms being tired from last week's shifting of heavy canteen furniture. Haiz.. I only need one more point for several of the tests to up one grade for each of them. I suppose I'll try again next year.

Just a word about Harry Potter, the fad ought to have ended. There's another hot item coming up, and there's just as much speculation, if not more. So.. Forget about the 3 Hallows! Halo 3 is out in a couple of months!

Flagged

2007-07-23T21:15:00.000+08:00

Summoned. How may I help you?

I like this song. Don't complain why I keep changing, I just have the capability to do so. I wonder which NDP song to put up next month..?

Anyway, I've signed up as a math mentor for weak students. My timeslot is thursday, it shouldn't be too difficult. At least not for 2 weeks. I'm a bit worried about summation, it's my worst topic, so it's going to be a difficult teaching, unless I master it soon. Heh, not sure if I have to mentor some of my classmates, I know some didn't do well.

Today I had to do a presentation in a group over some topic, it was a chance to practice my public speaking skills again. I really need to brush that up, although I'd say I'm better than most people. (or, maybe I take these stuff more seriously)

This week I'll try to buy a flag on a pole from Joo Chait CC. I went to Marine Parade CC today, but they pointed me to Joo Chiat. The interesting thing is, Joo Chiat CC is further away from where I live than Marine Parade CC, plus I live in Joo Chiat constituency. I want to have a flag to stick right up outside my room on the balcony. From the top floor a flag flying would be impressive, just hope no terrorist points a rocket launcher there.

Black Holes

2007-07-19T20:25:00.000+08:00

Struggling to escape the black hole in my life is now my challenge..

Recently got an influx of a few more songs. I'll take a while to sort out which I like. Meanwhile, if you've got some you'd like to share with me, please do.

The talk by the professor got cancelled due to lack of response from the secondary school students. I've been prompted to try again, declined as I really think it's not feasible, since robotics just isn't something people readily take interest in. But yeah, I'm relieved the episode is over.

Hero

2007-07-17T20:10:00.000+08:00

I'm still angry at my brother, he is such a pig! swine! hog! Thinks I should leave the last large piece of smoked salmon for the maid without observing how much he took and how little I had taken. Anyway it's not a right for the maid to eat the more expensive stuff; but what's really making me angry is that he insists on his wrong judgement, and treats me like I did a crime after I ate the salmon. I don't want to continue living near a person with no respect for me.

Enough ranting on that. I flunked my geography, so much for H3. I got 42%, it doesn't help me that an S (subpass) grade is the most common grade. I have to actually start studying, I've decided to work to remove my impractical principle of not studying for tests.

I just got this song recently, and I think it's nice, esp the lyrics (since they sorta apply now). Enough shortfalls have occured to bring me nearer to discouraged status. I must stand up again! Here are the translated lyrics, I'll take off the song in August.

I'm so good at pretending to be cool
Forgetting about the things that really matter
I'm just making it hard for myself
So goodbye to all that, it's time for a transformation!

Whatcha gonna do if you're afraid of the dark?
Whatcha gonna do if you're scared of some guy?
If you're content to just keep your footing
You'll never get anywhere

If you're a real man, become strong for someone
Clench your teeth, fight till the end
Don't be afraid to fall, and when you do, just rise once more
If you can do just that
You are a hero [Alright!]

I hate myself for being so complacent
All those times when I don't feel like doing anything
Take a deep breath, it's time for a change
And let's do it now, it's time for a transformation!

Whatcha gonna do when you're so timid?
Whatcha gonna do for your future?
If you just look down and keep silent
Nobody's gonna hear you

If you're a real man, become strong for someone
Take on the world head-on
Don't be afraid to cry, just smile again
If you can do just that
You are a hero [wow..... wow.....]

If you're a real man, become strong for someone
Same for you girls, nothing will happen by just watching things go by
All you need is the courage to stand up for what is right
If you can do just that
You are a hero

If you're a real man, become strong for someone
Clench your teeth, fight till the end
Don't be afraid to fall, and when you do, just rise once more
If you can do just that
You are a hero [Alright!]

Scraps

2007-07-16T17:20:00.000+08:00

"Failure! You have been defeated!"

Right now I'm in school, and I'm blogging from my notebook. Seems that I'm very sleepy now, yesterday night I did manage to download some songs, but some presentation work took me later into the night. XD

I scraped past my General Paper. I got 45.5%, and that's an E. But it's still far under the standard I'm supposed to have! I failed (below 50%) every segment. Still, thank God it's not a subpass.
During math lesson today, I also realised that my summation topic is dead in trouble. I wasn't able to get through the questions on my own. I guess I'll really have to start studying. It's not so much of a choice anymore.

On a lighter note, this post marks the point where I have more posts here than in my previous blog. And this song is nice too! (the other NDP song this year is complete crap)

My arms be hurting now. I guess it's partially due to me lugging the laptop around the whole day. But yesterday I also shifted a large flower pot (with a palm tree in it) about 5 metres or so. It took more than 10 minutes of lifting and twisting to move it's position.