Repressed

Not a song this time, but a poem. It's one of those a friend composed.
And no, I'm not depressed.. yet. But then I don't really know what's bothering me. Could be some failures I've made recently, the mass of homework I've not done, new responsibilities, or just that I'm feeling the first symtoms of an illness. This time I've fallen sick with lack of sleep; I wonder if there's a way to train sleeping less. Besides all that, I really need to lose some weight I've put on in the last few days.

Oh, and the inter-house debates. We've won both our 2 debates so far. However we got criticized by the judge for using prepared speeches (I probably suggested them), we were speaking our points well at the cost of not directly rebutting. A drawback, I suppose, but it has helped us to win. Anyway the other teams weren't directly rebutting either, but speaking from just notes made them very clumsy in speech. I shall have to practice orating.


State of Depression

The darkness shrouds, I stood in fright
I’m all alone, on this cold winter’s night
Shattered to pieces, I never knew why
Curled up in a corner, I waved good-bye
I should have known, it was never meant to be
But it was you who set me free
Now I’m lost in the wild
Vanished through the crowd
Torn to bits, I can never be found

There’s something missing, a hole inside
I’m left wide open, defenceless to fight
I’m drowning within a deep, dark trench
I can’t be saved, my heart clench
Struggling to swim to a light I see
But a wave washes over, overwhelming me
Now I’m lost in the wild
Vanished through the crowd
Torn to bits, I can never be found

It’s burning yet cold, I cannot breathe
So hard it seems, I’m trying to live
Pain consumes me, tearing me apart
Like a knife it slices, piercing like a dart
I’m all alone, in the stillness of the dark
This scar won’t heal, it leaves a mark
Because I’m lost in the wild
I’ve vanished through the crowd
Now torn to bits, I can never be found