to fall

"I stand upon some dreadful brink, and it is utterly dark in the abyss before my feet, but whether there is any light behind me I cannot tell. For I cannot turn yet. I wait for some stroke of doom."

PathFinder is over. I only took part in the first day as my friend was unavailable on the second. I see the irony that from where some teams left off, Man hasn't quite fallen yet, but has just been created, despite being the theme 'The Fall of Man'. This is taken from the fact that the cards we picked up have verses that only reach the end of chapter 1 of Genesis.
Travelling wasn't quite good. I'm so unfamiliar with public transport, and we went the wrong way at least twice. Dinner was terrible, unhealthy crispy chicken from KFC (I ate a good deal XD). I slept very late. The first time I laid down at 11+, I went to rest, without expecting sleep. My mind was screening through loads of thoughts and possibilities, along with ideals. Then I whistled a number of songs from the hymn-book and KS songbook while some friends talked, and slept later. I woke up slightly earlier than most people, as usual, and then left for home as I didn't have to compete anymore.

I have pondered over much recently, and made several conclusions. Yet questions remain, and the future is hid from me. One thing is certain, I should not be so bound by the ideas of cause and effect.

The Penang trip will be soon. I really don't like to go overseas. And, it'll also make me late for the KSS Retreat. Then my parents are also talking of a trip to Australia next Chinese New Year. I'm against myself going, of course, but the tension is building.