Lamentables

What if your house were not a home, to you?

Just had another clash with my family. It's just too annoying that I can't avoid differences from causing me anger. I never do like dissention. But I will, I must, face up to obstacles. I know I'm not meant to stay here. It's just that, I've nowhere else to go, yet.
Yes, I can defend my choice to leave. But I'm trying hard not to say stuff back, it's not good for me, and to be civil, it's not good for them. For now, while I have not left physically, I have successfully managed to live independently in areas such as emotional, social, and studywise ones, maybe more. But it is these, not material matters, that will help me to finally break off. However, this progress has also resulted in more friction, not the least due to lack of communication, which I actually couldn't have achieved without their role. Yet another reason why it would be impeding to stay.
I do, however, appreciate the value to family. I quote, "family is the base unit of society". I agree, and therefore I don't hold anything against those who love their family. Some times I do have envy, but well, to each their own.

Anyway, I have been able to gain somewhat more standing with my classmates. And started on some homeworks. I'm thankful to God. It's not going to be an easy path up, I will continue to need Him.
This month is the one where applications for Executive Committee occur in CCAs. I'm not sure how many to take up, but I am considering all.
Tomorrow, the school will be celebrating International Friendship Day. I think they'll have activities within the class, it's actually better that way. I hope it'll be fun.

My arms have somewhat thickened, though still far from it's potential. Somehow short people have a tendency to appear laden with muscle, probably with training, though that might be a bit too much for me. It has affected my weight, I don't think I've fallen below 50kg in weeks. My average is still less than 51kg, so I'll set my limit at 51.5kg. If I overshoot it within this term, I have to seriously cut down my food intake.